Focus

Good Morning Lovies,

The last two nights, I have slept like the dead.

Wow.

I find myself wanting either another Fitbit or a ring so I can know the quality of the sleep.

I still wake up very groggy but I know that’s because of the medication.

I got to talk to my niece and nephew yesterday. My sister FaceTimed me. They are so precious.

Well I said in my short yesterday that Imma start stirring shit up. Today that starts with stirring myself up. Focus on one thing at a time.

And hopefully, I’ll go to bed with the knowledge that I’m sufficiently stirred up.

Not that I’m shit but the lethargy within me, ya know?

So…one thing at a time and the day will be productive.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Boring Baybeh

Good Morning!

Friday at last!

My poor Grey is having issues. When I got home, she yowled at me for like an hour. She couldn’t decide what she wanted. That’s the thing with her. She takes forever to make a decision.

If she wants to get up on my lap, she’ll stand in front of me trying to figure it out. Same if she’s contemplating a jump or wants some water for the sink, she has to think about it for a long time.

My poor girl.

So I slept last night. My head hit the pillow and I didn’t wake up once until 5.

Sleep good baybeh.

I haven’t had to run the air at all this week. I’ve just had the fan in the window.

So that’ll help come bill time.

Other than that, I’m thinking it’s time to stir things up. I’m caught in this day to day and nothing changes.

Boring baybeh.

Anyways, yes, yes.

I’m going to get ready for work and be in my merry way.

I hope you all have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Denise

Doable

Good Morning!

Thank God we have only one more wake up day this week. Y’girl is bored and tired and stressed and all the things.

So be it.

So no repeats of the awful pain I experienced the other day.

But I’m literally afraid to eat. I did eat though. But I was careful.

It sounds so stupid to say, “oh, I’m so proud of myself for not calling in at this job.” But if you understood my history, you’d get it.

So yeah, not once. Haven’t been late or left early either.

Do I love this job? No. Do I hate or dislike this job? No.

I’m Switzerland.

I like my boss. I like the people I work for.

It’s a doable job.

Just the pay.

I’d stay if the pay was anywhere near where I need and deserve it to be. It’s not a livable wage.

Bla bla bla, right? SSDD.

At least I’m eating much healthier. At least I’m I’m usually getting enough sleep.

My daughter and I had a really good conversation last night. She shared a lot of things with me. It makes me feel good that she feels safe sharing herself with me.

She knows I’ll be truthful but I’ll be supportive and kind too.

We are all in this journey. We are to learn and grow and figure as much as we can with the time we’ve got.

She’s got way more solid footing than I did at her age.

Proud Momma Bear here.

Anyways, time to get ready.

I hope you all have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Attacked!

Hello!!

Oh my goodness, I just realized I didn’t blog today.

I’m exhausted. Not from lack of sleep but from some strange and horrific attack I had yesterday. From everything I looked up, I do believe it was a gallbladder attack. It was excruciating. Even my ulcer and gas/bloating pain/attacks felt nothing like this. It was the worst pain I’ve ever felt and lasted for two hours. I was gonna go straight to the ER from work but my daughter needed a ride to work and by the time I got home to pick her up, it was over.

But pain I’ve found, causes exhaustion and so other than making myself a very careful dinner, I didn’t do shite.

Today, I’ve been looking up foods that are high in saturated fat and from now on; small doses of that shit. I don’t EVER want to go through that again but I also found out that not eating means not enough bile and if I do have stones, it can cause them to settle and block.

Fucking horrible. 

I’ll still eat saturated fats but like I said, small doses. And I’m going to have to go to one percent milk from 2%. Some fats are good for you and so I need to keep them in my diet, but I also need to pay more attention to what kind.

Blah.

While my lunch break is over. I just wanted to check in.

I hope you are all having a great day.

Be Blessed. 

Love & Light,

Neecie

Best To Keep It Clean

Good Morning!

Oh my God. It’s a frickin’ pooping morning. Yikes!

This is the first time in forever that I was afraid I wouldn’t make it into work without an accident. But I did and I’m early so why not blog real quick?

I managed to get some things done last night. 

I ate and then I dumped out the dirty litter, scrubbed the boxes and refilled them, vacuumed out the areas they sit in and then managed to get the garbage out and to load up the dishwasher.

All good stuff.

I didn’t sleep well. And yeah, the rumbles have started and the volcano is active.

Tonight, I cook. So many times I buy groceries and then I don’t end up using them. And it’s all because of this laziness.

So I’m gonna make my dinner for tonight when I get home and then I’m gonna make my dinner for tomorrow as well.

And clean and apply for some jobs.

And I should probably shower. I’m so tired by shower time, that I often time skip it and I need to stop doing that because I don’t feel clean.

When you’re living a shit storm best to keep it clean.

Alright, well onwards.

I hope you have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

My. St. Helens

Good Monday!!

How is everyone? I’m ok. I made Alfredo yesterday and I’m paying my dues to the porcelain goddess this morning.

Need I say more?

So. The meds are finally kicking in so I have no excuses. Time to find my life.

I had the best love session with Pumpkin. That cat revels in all things good. When I brush her, her mouth hangs open and she stretches her paws wide. She purrs and it looks like she’s experiencing heaven.

I don’t want to go to work but I shall. Must make the donuts.

Here I am making the donuts. I was told it gets pretty quiet before the 4th. So I find myself having to find things to do.

I mean they’re paying me for it but I sometimes doubt that this is a full time job but even so, I’ll take it. 

I do free online typing tests and I read about history; Vikings, Mt. St. Helen’s. Stuff I find interesting.

The one thing I don’t do is use the work computer to check my YouTube channel or this blog. I wised up to that years ago. Especially after that really angry woman I worked for.

So.

The loan people just sent a message threatening to send me into collections. I need to get the bankruptcy filed.

I can’t wait for this to just be all be over.

That’s giving me anxiety now so imma just chill and read about volcanos until I have something to do.

I hope you all have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

The Best Laid Plans

Happy Saturday,

Lovely to get up and slug it out a little. My phone is going to ring in 3 minutes and I’ll be having a catch up call with women I love.

Then home to finish up the cleaning, get some makeup on my face and shoot some videos and then go to a grad party. When I get back, I’m gonna go for a walk and do some yoga, take my bougie bath, pick my daughter up from work and go to bed.

Sounds like a plan!

Ah, the best laid plans, I know. 

But I’ll just meander through this, try to stay present and focused and you know, we’ll just go from there.

My brother, his wife and their daughter are coming to the States this coming week and I can’t wait to see them!!

Well I had the call, it’s lovely. So now I’m headed back to my place and gonna jump on in!!

I hope you have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie