Vertigo Baby

Hello and How Are Ya?

I woke up with vertigo!! I went through a major bout of this about ten years ago and it was no bueno.

I’m about to shower and then I’m gonna do the neti-pot and the eppley maneuver, which I probably spelled wrong.

I’m going to a wedding reception tonight and I just really want to be able to dance and have fun as opposed to lurching about like a drunken sailor.

Ugh, I’m gonna be doing my hair and that sucks because there is a whole process to this.

I have to paint my toenails and my face and just…yay rah!

But it’ll be fun and I’ll be with both of my daughters and my son in-law.

Thinking about my sissies in Barbados. Now I kinda wish I could’ve went with them.

We shall have our time, I’m sure of it. Also thinking about my friend Wrin who is living. Believe me, if anyone knows the pain of moving…it’s Y’girl here.

The apartment stayed clean all week and for that, YES!

Success on any front is a win worth celebrating.

Alright, well I have a feeling this day is gonna go fast. We have to leave at 4 to get to the reception.

And I’ll be up late soooooo.

Ok, have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Rock Stars

Good Morning Fellow Rock Stars!!

How ya doing? Happy it’s Friday? I am. Did you know that some days of the week are named after the Norse pantheon of Gods?

Thursday comes from Thor. Wednesday comes from Woden, or Odin as he’s better known. Friday comes from Freya.

Kinda cool.

On Thursday, when I’m feeling like, “Will this ever end?”, I like to play Thunderstruck by AC/DC.

Gets me all pumped up.

Yeah you guys I fucked up shit this week. I don’t mean to do this, those signals get crossed.

My boss made a HUGE issue out of the fact that I paper clipped something yesterday instead of stapling it.

There were some bigger issues than that but as much as I like her, she really shuts everyone down right away and is incapable of seeing other people’s point of view.

I don’t want to be there anymore.

Get off your old ass and fucking apply for other jobs girlfriend.

I know.

I know.

Believe me, I know.

My baby sisters are in Barbados together and they FaceTimed me. We are hilarious, the three of us. I wish I could’ve been with them but the stars were not aligned this time.

The important thing is that they are together and having a good time.

Love those girlies!!!!

Well off I go.

So far, no signs of the sickness my daughter is down with. Wedding reception tomorrow. 

Onwards!!!!

Have a great day. 

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Zombieland

Good Morning!

Oh you guys, my daughter has a cold. I just pray if I get it, it’s not until this weekend.

But I have been even more tired than usual and my stomach has been off for days now.

I’m so tired.

Wah.

I wanted to see how I slept last night with only the magnesium and it was good. I was not as groggy and foggy.

I’m gonna try and stop taking it altogether. I’ll probably take it every other night for a couple weeks and then cut back from there, etc.

It’s not addictive but it is so strong, even with cutting it in two. The pills are so tiny as it is, I can’t cut them down any less than half.

And half is what I’ve been taking every night. Zombieland for sure.

Holding pattern.

Time to go ready so I can go make the donuts.

Wah.

My boss was gone yesterday.

Another coworker told me she tends to do this. Nice for her I guess.

Seriously though, it was nice to have a day basically to myself.

Anyways, gotta go.

I hope you have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Heed the Warnings

Ugh,

One of my neighbors has this car with a really loud engine.

I mean…loud.

It sounds like the world is ripping in two.

I’m worried about France. They are having record breaking heat and they really don’t have air conditioning there.

It’s scary.

So, I was up a lot last night but able to go back to sleep. I was sweating and sweating and sweating. I had two hypoglycemic drops and this morning the shit show is on once again.

In full force.

In spite of the sweating, I also have goosebumps.

Clearly, I’ve caught myself a wee little bug but I’m still going into work.

I have to.

Where is Denise and what have you done with her?

Denise used any excuse she could to stay home.

No more.

Last night, I made myself dinner but my daughter offered me some Jimmy John’s so I got that and now I have food for work so that’s good but I paid for that JJs, I’m paying this morning.

Oh boy, am I paying.

Anyways, I also talked to my sissy. She’s the good stuff.

Oh Lord, I tell ya, the end of many things is coming.

I mean it.

My body is telling me all sorts of things, throwing out a lot of warnings.

So I guess it’s time to heed them. I really wish I made more money at this job. I don’t want to have to look for another one again.

And I wish there was something I could do about my lethargy in the evenings.

I mean I have good evenings but I have slug evenings too.

Anyways, this is a downer but it’s where I’m at.

Ugh!

Onwards!

I hope you all have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Beast

Yigh, 

Monday. They get a bad rap, don’t they? 

My morning was horrid.

As soon as I got up, I started sobbing. Man, when it comes over me, it really comes over me.

I couldn’t stop. And my IBS? All day yesterday and two attacks this morning. And then this beautiful song didn’t even know I had, played on Spotify this morning.and I was straight up in my feels. 

There’s a scary dude by my car. I work in a scary neighborhood. Ok, he kept going.

I don’t like getting here early but I always do.

I wish I could go home.

I will say this. For the most part, we’ve had a temperate summer. Very little humidity so far. I should probably knock on wood.

I will get through this day.

I always do.

It’s not doom I’m feeling, this isn’t anxiety. It’s just sorrow.

I talked to Mom and Dad, told them how missed they are. And loved.

I’m gonna push through this day. Just because it didn’t start out so great doesn’t mean the whole day has to be a wash.

In fact, my bestie just messaged me and I’m howling!! She’s so fucking funny!!

Thanks Beast!

I hope you all have a good day.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Happy Solstice

Hello!

Oh man, oh man, oh man.

Had to shift gears from my intended to do’s already.

Didn’t sleep last night. I forgot it’s the solstice. So of course I didn’t sleep.

Happy Solstice!!

Woke up and the shit show, aka, mud bath has begun. Full on IBS attack mode. Pain, poo, doubled over puking from the pain of the cramps.

I’ll tell ya what, I knocked it out of the park yesterday. My apartment is CLEAN.

My laundry is done, folded, put away or hung up. Like…YES!

As far as my list today, because I am exhausted, I’m gonna deprioritize some of those things and just do what I can and I’ll probably take a nap at some point. I showered yesterday AM and then took my bougie bath last night but I want to shower ASAP after that attack.

Nothing like an IBS attack to make you feel dirty as a pig in mud.

I can still get things done and more importantly, I’m getting closer to what I want my weekends to be.

Soooo yeah.

Slow down, slow the pace but keep it steady Momma.

Wow. 

Just. Wow.

Golly.

Not the morning I had planned but…it can still be a morning I can make the most of.

Still a day to get things done.

Be Blessed y’all.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Focus

Good Morning Lovies,

The last two nights, I have slept like the dead.

Wow.

I find myself wanting either another Fitbit or a ring so I can know the quality of the sleep.

I still wake up very groggy but I know that’s because of the medication.

I got to talk to my niece and nephew yesterday. My sister FaceTimed me. They are so precious.

Well I said in my short yesterday that Imma start stirring shit up. Today that starts with stirring myself up. Focus on one thing at a time.

And hopefully, I’ll go to bed with the knowledge that I’m sufficiently stirred up.

Not that I’m shit but the lethargy within me, ya know?

So…one thing at a time and the day will be productive.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie