Good Times

Hello and Good Morning!

I am currently sitting in a parking ramp because I am meeting my brother, my sister-in-law, and my niece for breakfast. They are in town for a bit of time. I am very excited to see them.

I had a great day yesterday, you guys I got so much done. Now I’ve written about the fact that when I have a good day, the next day is usually a crash day. But I have already been up, meditated, did my Wim Hoff breathing, took a quick ice cold shower, shot three videos, and went to do a grocery pick up. I also managed to get some makeup on my face for the videos.

After breakfast, there shall be more.

But I won’t Wright of those things now I’ll just let you know tomorrow how it goes.

I just want to get everything in the apartment done and feel a sense of accomplishment there and hope that that will keep me going for all that needs to come.

I haven’t been feeling as down, which is wonderful.

My sister will be home from her travels this week and I am very excited to see her as well.

And now I have to go to the bathroom so I’m going to go do that before my family arrives to the restaurant

I hope you have a good fourth, whatever you decide to do and if you decide to celebrate.

Have a great day!

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

No Choice

Good Morning!

Ugh, it’s pissing down rain again. I know it’s a good thing but driving in it is a pain in the arse. 

Ah well. I’ll appreciate how green everything is.

I was awoken by daughter who didn’t sleep last night because Starbee’s brought back the S’mores Frappuccino. So at five, off we went to get her one. My sweet, sweet girl.

Now I’m at work but early, thus this blog.

I don’t wanna adult today but I guess I have no choice. And so…I go on.

My boss is coming in today so I’ll be able to take care of some financial things. She’s changing payroll up so I am only getting two days of pay and of course I have rent due on Sunday. But she did tell me she could front me a couple hundred against my next paycheck so I need to make sure that happens. It’ll be close and I don’t know if we’re gonna make it or not but at least I’ve got a fighting chance if she does this for me.

Oh man, I’m a tired girl and I’m feeling my tummy gearing up for “go” mode so I guess I better jump in.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Snuggles

Good Morning!

I managed to get ready and get out the door this morning. Too early though because I’m already at work and have no means of getting in. No one is here yet.

The shining, wonderful thing about this week is that I don’t work on Friday.

For that, I am grateful.

Because I’m finding this harder and harder. But I’m making it work, because I have no choice but to make it work.

I have to make shit happen this week. I have no choice. Lots of things I have no choice but really…I do because I could choose to sit on my ass and I’m not going to do that this week.

Let’s do dis.

I miss my sister.

She’ll be home next week. I wish we were little again, I’d make her snuggle with me.

I may have something more to look forwards to family wise but I’m refraining from posting about it until I find out if it’s a good or not.

I also just want to take two trips this year. Jersey to see my fam and Washington to see my bestie.

Please please please let this happen.

There may be another one, I’m not sure. 

Have to get my passport.

But in all of this, there must also be movement forward. You know, with my life. I just feel so stuck and…well you know the deal.

I need to call my girls’ grandma. I had a dream about that their dad. I just want to make sure he’s ok.

Anyways, I’ll call her.

And I guess on with my day now.

Boss is gone for most of the week. Nice reprieve but I can’t fuck anything up. She’ll be all over that.

Gotta go. Be Blessed.

Love & Light, 

Neecie

Amazing & Wonderful

Good Morning!

Ah, I had a wonderful time last night. So much fun. I went to a wedding reception for my daughter’s best friend.

I had such a good time.

And per the norm, I’m experiencing a bit of a crash. I always do after a day of either high productivity or fun.

I honestly think this is a part of the borderline personality shit. The self sabotage peace where God forbid I have fun or do something good for myself. It’s like that internal switch goes off that says you don’t deserve this. What you accomplished doesn’t matter because it’s not enough. You basically suck. 

So today, I’m just kind of trying to say fuck you to that voice. And those mean words. If there’s something that I don’t deserve, it’s that, it’s the horrible things. My brain tells me about myself.

So yeah, just had an amazing and wonderful time.

And I’m allowing myself to take it easy today, but I am going to do a basic pick up because things got a little hectic yesterday getting ready for the reception and there’s just a little bit of a mess. I’m gonna do some laundry too.

But nothing earth shattering.

I already went and got gas for the car and gave myself a facial, just gonna do nice things for myself in between the pick up and go to bed, knowing it’s all good. All will be well and all manner of things will be well.

I hope you all have a very good day.

Be Blessed .

Love & Light,

Neecie

Vertigo Baby

Hello and How Are Ya?

I woke up with vertigo!! I went through a major bout of this about ten years ago and it was no bueno.

I’m about to shower and then I’m gonna do the neti-pot and the eppley maneuver, which I probably spelled wrong.

I’m going to a wedding reception tonight and I just really want to be able to dance and have fun as opposed to lurching about like a drunken sailor.

Ugh, I’m gonna be doing my hair and that sucks because there is a whole process to this.

I have to paint my toenails and my face and just…yay rah!

But it’ll be fun and I’ll be with both of my daughters and my son in-law.

Thinking about my sissies in Barbados. Now I kinda wish I could’ve went with them.

We shall have our time, I’m sure of it. Also thinking about my friend Wrin who is living. Believe me, if anyone knows the pain of moving…it’s Y’girl here.

The apartment stayed clean all week and for that, YES!

Success on any front is a win worth celebrating.

Alright, well I have a feeling this day is gonna go fast. We have to leave at 4 to get to the reception.

And I’ll be up late soooooo.

Ok, have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Rock Stars

Good Morning Fellow Rock Stars!!

How ya doing? Happy it’s Friday? I am. Did you know that some days of the week are named after the Norse pantheon of Gods?

Thursday comes from Thor. Wednesday comes from Woden, or Odin as he’s better known. Friday comes from Freya.

Kinda cool.

On Thursday, when I’m feeling like, “Will this ever end?”, I like to play Thunderstruck by AC/DC.

Gets me all pumped up.

Yeah you guys I fucked up shit this week. I don’t mean to do this, those signals get crossed.

My boss made a HUGE issue out of the fact that I paper clipped something yesterday instead of stapling it.

There were some bigger issues than that but as much as I like her, she really shuts everyone down right away and is incapable of seeing other people’s point of view.

I don’t want to be there anymore.

Get off your old ass and fucking apply for other jobs girlfriend.

I know.

I know.

Believe me, I know.

My baby sisters are in Barbados together and they FaceTimed me. We are hilarious, the three of us. I wish I could’ve been with them but the stars were not aligned this time.

The important thing is that they are together and having a good time.

Love those girlies!!!!

Well off I go.

So far, no signs of the sickness my daughter is down with. Wedding reception tomorrow. 

Onwards!!!!

Have a great day. 

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Zombieland

Good Morning!

Oh you guys, my daughter has a cold. I just pray if I get it, it’s not until this weekend.

But I have been even more tired than usual and my stomach has been off for days now.

I’m so tired.

Wah.

I wanted to see how I slept last night with only the magnesium and it was good. I was not as groggy and foggy.

I’m gonna try and stop taking it altogether. I’ll probably take it every other night for a couple weeks and then cut back from there, etc.

It’s not addictive but it is so strong, even with cutting it in two. The pills are so tiny as it is, I can’t cut them down any less than half.

And half is what I’ve been taking every night. Zombieland for sure.

Holding pattern.

Time to go ready so I can go make the donuts.

Wah.

My boss was gone yesterday.

Another coworker told me she tends to do this. Nice for her I guess.

Seriously though, it was nice to have a day basically to myself.

Anyways, gotta go.

I hope you have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie