At Least I Can Say...

 Hi Everyone,

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I love this little girl sou jmujjcjjjjjjhjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjji843,33333333333r5asjl.

Ok, she made it to the counter, I moved the computer desk to the living room and I have to squeeze in here so it makes a wee bit harder when she wants to jump up and investigate.

I'm very, very tired. 4 hours last night. I'm almost out of my sleep drink and I can't afford more. I do have the hydroxyzine but that crash...I don't know if I have another one in me. I'm afraid I'll crash lower because I haven't come back from the one last weekend. 

I'm fighting my way back but man...

My oldest daughter came over last night, she was with my youngest.

I know it's not all the hydroxyzine. I know it's me. I'm going to do one good thing for myself today (actually I've already done a few) and that is that I am going to schedule a doctor's appointment.

I just looked up my doctor and she's in my network. I do have insurance but it's complicated. I've decided it's worth the risk.

And I'm looking, just looking, for another job. I found one on Indeed that could work but of course, then we begin the process of interviewing, bla bla bla and not getting jobs. 

Thank God I have one.

I have to go.

The apartment is a mess and I at least want to get my clean clothes put away so if I do come home and deflate, I can say, "well, I gott'er done this morning."

Big Love to you all.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie