My Star Still Shines

Good Morning!

It’s amazing to me what can change in a day and what can stay the same.

I got a job offer. It’s the one I was hoping for.

The pay…it’s low.

In a matter of two weeks, I went from the highest paying job I’ve ever had to the lowest.

However, I refuse to look at this as anything other than a huge opportunity.

An opportunity to learn, to fix my shit, to be present in this and to experience this.

My boss, she’s a very kind person. I sense no underlaying anger in her, I sense no drama…in the interview, she was very kind, she answered all my questions, she was forthcoming…all the things I’ve wanted.

I need to focus on that, like that’s where my gratitude must come from and where it must rest in.

Ok, so what now? I need to file bankruptcy asap but it’s expensive so I need to figure that out, also asap.

I need to get a second job.

I need to stay consistent with YouTube and Willow’s Whimsy. That part at least will start with some research on how to get my products advertised (free of cost).

So that’s it.

No other big plans, no lists, no driving myself crazy. I need to learn this time to stay in the present and to let it unfold naturally.

Right now, presence is everything.

I honestly believe that there is where I will find success; in the now.

I think I wrote about the dream I had of dad, the one where he was telling my sister and my kids not to worry because there was a plan for me and he was holding a piece of paper that the plan was written on.

Well yesterday, I had said to Dad that I needed a bit more information because I was floundering…and struggling to believe his message. My bio mom called and as I was talking to her, a cardinal landed not 6 feet from my car; a male and a female. I see cardinals for Dad, he loved them.

And so I saw this pair and it just hit me like a ton of bricks because I had just asked him to come again and there he was.

I went back inside and I had gotten the job offer.

I continue to be blown away at the power of love and connection after death. This is something truly believe in.

So.

I am relieved but still stressed. 

But at least I’m able to have a glimmer of hope as well…and a willingness to continue on.

It’s better to burn out, than to fade away.

My star still shines.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie