Mixed Messages

Good Morning!

It’s been hot in MN. I’m worried about the electric bill. But I can’t function in heat.

I’m just so glad it hasn’t been humid yet.

I learned more the last two days at work and I’m grateful for it because it’s QuickBooks and that makes my marketability go up.

I wish the pool here would open early so I could swim alone.

Good exercise. 

When I was working at the other place, I got some new jeans and they are too big. Y’girl has lost weight.

Anxiety and poverty will do that apparently.

I want to thank you all for reading this blog everyday. This is the first time ever that I’ve gone over 1000 hits in a month.

So what are my plans for the day? Apply, apply, apply. For something that pays a livable wage and for a part time job. Some exercise and clean the apartment. It’s awful.

Oh, and someone messaged me asking to meet me in Coon Rapids to buy two of my bath bombs.

So that too.

To try and stay off my phone.

Ok.

I’m tired but I also know I slept pretty good. I haven’t worn my Fitbit in over a month so I don’t know the quality of sleep. I’ve been getting but I do know it’s been better.

Yesterday, I closed my checking account and opened a new one. I had to do that so that the loan payment won’t go through. We still won’t make rent this month but at least that next step is done. I’m terrified they’re going to come get the car. Living in all these unknowns is just so scary and so exhausting. 

It makes me very sad.

I just have to go on though. I’m going to clean the car out today I guess as well so I better add that to the list. There’s really not anything that I want in the car but just to make sure.

I can’t think about this stuff for too long because I’m flabbergasted that I let it come to this. Like, what the fuck was I thinking?

Clearly, I wasn’t.

And now we begin the big climb out and just try to continue on.

I have one final meeting with an attorney on Wednesday after work and I’m pretty sure I’ll go with them. They are reputable. I’ve talked to three different attorneys and each time, the fee for the bankruptcy has gone up and I’m getting mixed messages about the car.

Nightmare stuff.

All right, well I hope you all have a great day. I hope it’s productive weather in things you need to get done or time spent with loved ones.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light, 

Neecie