A Grasp?

Hi All,

Oh man. I am off the charts today. Can you say anxiety? One is that I have to yet again ask someone for money. For rent, which I have until tomorrow to pay. And also because I have a second interview tomorrow and if I get this, I could be working next Monday. And applying for a part time job.

This could be over.

But of course, that’s a grasp, right? Because I don’t know if I’ll get it.

I can’t calm down so I’m trying to stay busy.

And get the apartment clean, because if I start working two jobs, cleaning will be…interesting.

Oh you guys, I’m terrified. Terrified of getting the job and terrified of NOT getting the job.

If I get this, my debt could be paid off in 18 months. I’d keep the second job for another six months so I could save up to move out of here.

Ok, calm down darlin’, we ain’t there yet and this ship hasn’t set sail so fuck a duck and get through this day.

I grocery shopped. A neighbor gave me a $50 dollar gift card and that feels me out but it was nice so imma make some cookies and give him some as a thank you.

Ok, well apparently I’m nuts so let’s this out this entry out of its misery and get on with it.

I hope you are all having an amazing day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie