The picture I tried to insert from my phone doesn’t seem to be working, sorry about that.
I have not been able to move today. I have some weird virus. I can feel it in my chest but that’s no cough, no shortness of breath. I am sneezing however, I have a headache and I’m so tired it feels like I weigh 500lbs when I get up and walk around.
And that makes all the other stuff hurt and feel worse; the mental health stuff.
I don’t want this life…the way it is. No one else can change it though. No one. Just me. God seems to be being stingy with his/her/their miracles of late.
And I need a miracle. Money? Well that would be great but no, if given a choice, I would choose the miracle of healing. Get rid of this mental health shit, be the kind of person who has a dream and goes for it and doesn’t stop, who doesn’t question themselves - self confidence supreme. Be the kind of person who has no shame, who believes in themself but has no arrogance.
Someone who has the fucking energy to help others.
Then…yeah, some money would be great. And if there was no choice, only money, I’d take it and try to fix this shit myself.
I don’t feel good. My head hurts. My head hurts a lot so I’m giving myself grace and I’m gonna get through today and then we’ll see what we can do about getting through this thing called life.
See, I continue to have good days and bad days. I cry a lot because I’m so very unhappy.
But the Universe provides happy moments in the midst of all this and that keeps me going. No self-pity. It is what it is and I go on.
That’s today.
And that’s ok.
Be Blessed.
Love & Light,
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