Floaters

 Hi guys!

Me again. Twofer today!! So I posted a short on my page and it got me thinking…about these affirmations I’m doing and how they are not a miracle cure by any means but more of a slow, subtle, change-inducing nature. You know, the last 3 days, I have been able to push myself to do the things I don’t want to, to push through the evenings so that the entire evening is not spent on the couch.

It’s not like I’m running marathons or getting a TON done each night but honestly, there have been so many nights, prior to this week, where I deflated completely. Deflation is my normal. 

But this week at least, there seems to be some relief from that.

 It’s still deflation but the leak causing said deflation must be getting smaller.

I like to picture one of those huge blowup pool toys that float and then I picture it getting punctured and it wilts down to a big pile and you slip into the water.

Hopefully you can swim.

Whatever I’m puncturing myself with, has gotten smaller. 

It’s the puncture I have to look at for, because when not punctured, the floatie floats.

So if I start mending the punctures and paying attention to what causes them, I’ll start just peacefully floating along.

All the “stuff” will become habit and at some point, it won’t feel like me pushing myself, it’ll just be what I do.

I’m cracking up because all this talk of floating makes me think of Pennywise, the original floater. Ha! 

If you know, you know!

She said floaters.

I digress.

I have a half day of PTO saved and as soon as I have 8 hours, I’m taking a paid day off.

So on the way to work, I saw a rafter of turkeys. I always look up the spiritual significance of animals I see randomly because there are no coincidences and everything has meaning and a message as far as I’m concerned.

It’s all about abundance and prosperity, gratitude and making sacrifices to allow new things to come into my life.

Wow.

That’s cool.

Maybe it was Momma, come down as a turkey to keep reminding me that all is well and all manner of things will be well.

And I mean there were like 20 of them so I feel like that represents my tribe. It’s a good one, I’m lucky!

I like that and am owning it.

Anyways, I’m so happy my daughter will be home when I get there.

As the day has progressed, I’m really feeling shitty. Tummy no good today.

And I’d get something to eat but there’s nothing nearby other than HyVee and Chipotle and I don’t want that.

So starve until I get home I guess it is.

Lord love a duck. I accidentally wrote dick and I was gonna leave it because it made me laugh but really…it’s supposed to be duck.

I hope everyone’s day is going good. 

Love you all :)

Neecie