Good Stuff

 

Good Morning,

Y'girl having herself an old fashioned meltdown. 2 interviews today, still haven't heard back on the one I know I'm not gonna get.

I can't keep doing this.

I'm so stressed out right now. 

I haven't filed my taxes because I know I'm gonna owe.

How did I let this happen? 

I'm so mad at myself right now.

SO mad at myself.

I know that doesn't solve the problem but my God, I have officially hit another bottom. I'm done. I will never, ever be in denial when it comes to money again. Never.

I have learned my lesson.

I keep seeing the color orange. It's one of hope and I'm just praying that's mom, that she's trying to tell me to keep going.

I've been pooping all morning. It won't stop. That my friends, is stress.

I have one hour until the first interview so I guess I better go get ready.

Please send some good stuff today. I'm losing it over here.

I'm losing it big time.

I don't have time to meditate and center myself so I'm just trying to breath deep, to tell myself the good stuff.

This is without a doubt the most exhausting thing I've ever been through. If you all get a job, have a job, whatever, keep that motherfucker. 

It's brutal out here right now.

Well, I know these blogs have been a downer of late, I don't know how not to be honest. I'd love to blow smoke up everyone's keister, my own too, but it's getting harder to stay positive.

So.

Yeah, just send some good stuff because I don't seem to be able to muster much of my own right now.

Thank you!!

I hope you all have a great day.

Love & Light,

Neecie