Cheating on Myself

 Hello!

How are you all doing? I am doing OK today. Back and forth, back and forth.

Let me just start with the fact that you really have to count your blessings where they are because I gave in and did my taxes last night. I was going to let them go. I was. Because at this point, I'm fucking exhausted, I'm sick of playing this stupid, stupid game.

Anyways, I ended up not owing, I'm getting back. Not a lot but it's a helluva lot better than having to pay.

So the Universe threw me a bone. I did not get the county job and I am not surprised. I blew that interview. Big time.

I had two yesterday, both went well and I'm going on a second today. I don't want this job. I will however, take this job if offered.

I applied for one today that if I got it, it would be amazing. In fact, it would be SO amazing I'm debating printing out my resume and references and going straight to the company. It's homemade skincare!!

D'oh!

It's right in the heart of crack city but...I think I've put all that behind me sooooo....we'll see. I am honestly considering showing up there.

Oh. It was posted 21 days ago, they probably have hired someone. Oh well.

So yeah, got a second interview today that I don't want to go to but I will try. The other interview I had was for a company far, far away but I'd rather have that job, more my kind of vibe and people.

Other than that, I'm back to having "a feeling" that the end of all this may be coming. 

When I feel that, I go with it, even if it turns out not to be true.

Because it's better to feel hope than to contemplate death and wish it would come.

Right? That's better, right?

Drama. Yeah. But it is disheartening and it is hard.

I'm putting my furniture online today.

Yay for me.

I'm job searching, cleaning, exercising, eating and may or may not, engage in shenanigans of my own making.

I'm honestly considering making a sign and standing out at the stoplights.

The sign will say: Excellent Administrative Assistant job wanted. $25 - $30 an hour. Been looking for 4 months. On the verge of losing everything. Give me a job or help me with some cash.

For real though.

K, I'm out. Gotta get ready for the 2nd interview I really don't want to go to.

I feel like I'm cheating on myself but whatever.

Have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie