Girl, Interrupted

Good Morning!

How are you all? I hope you are doing well. I am OK. 

I woke up with the weird crash thing. Depression. It's OK, I'm hanging in there. I really am. And actually, today it feels more like just tiredness as opposed to outright depression. I did sleep really well. I'm never sure why I feel the way I feel in any given moment.

It's just different each day, although the tiredness/depression thing seems to be more of the norm. 

I have to just...keep going.

I'm going to go speak with this woman about a job, very part time but she'd pay me cash. It won't be enough to fix anything but it will be cash. I'd be rolling bagels, lol. She has her own business and a friend of mine met her and in talking, found out she needs help because her business is growing so fast.

I'll be honest, this black and white thinking of mine gets me in trouble because she rolls bagels three days a week during the day and I keep thinking, "what if I get a job?" What if I only worked once for her? But you know, my sister...I hear her voice whispering in my ear saying, "Denise, any money is better than no money."

I also get tripped up with the whole "interruption" thing, like, well I have other shit I want to do and this gets in the way. Jesus, I need to just tell myself to shut the fuck up.

So I'm going.

Ok, well, I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

So I guess I better shower and get going.