Meh. LOL. It is a good morning, I just don't want to go to work but at least things got a bit resolved yesterday.
They basically have me doing data entry now until Friday. I'll be there for 3 more weeks although they don't know that. It's a difficult thing, knowing they want to hire me permanently and knowing I don't want that. It feels like a lie.
And I try to live as moral, ethical a life as I can nowadays but sometimes...you have to play the game. I think I need to write out my non-negotiables now when it comes to securing permanent work with benefits.
Things I can think of right off the bat are my pay range, my hours and what I am willing to pay for benefits, plus deductible and all that shit.
Also, how far I'm willing to go and how far I'm willing to go directly correlates to what I'll be paid because I won't drive to hell and back for less pay than I'm worth. No, for me to drive a hell drive each morning and evening, I need to have them blowing gold out their arse at me.
Huge thank you to my sister and my friend Tracy for being my sound boards and the voices of reason as I navigated what the hell to do about this current work situation yesterday.
I stayed up late last night, anticipating a phone call but the phone call didn't come, although the person did text to let me know.
I've decided that I'm going to put on my do not disturb right when I get home so no one can text or call while I'm trying to get shit done. I'll take it off about an hour before I go to sleep so that I can catch up on anything that comes through but then it goes back on when I go to bed. I already have it set so that my kids, and my sister and my bestie can get through no matter what but everyone else will have to wait.
I won't get anything done otherwise and right now, this job thing? It's my number one priority. Remember I wrote about that event I went to for International Women's Day? The speaker said something I really needed to hear. She that you can do everything you want to do, you just can't do it all at once.
I get tripped up on that. And I give up because it's all so overwhelming.
So my focus has to be on getting a job and I cannot let myself sway from that.
Therefore, tonight is about LinkedIn, resume and job search.
Yeah, I'll try to clean a bit and I'll shower but those are givens so why write them down? No matter what, I stop at 8PM to do those givens and my ass is in bed by 9. My body doesn't want 9, it would prefer 10 but I'll change that up once I get a job where I don't start at 7AM.
While I adore getting off at 3:30, it's too hard to make that 7AM start time although I've been doing it.
So.
There you have it.
I go now to the mad dash I wrote of recently.
Shit, wash my face, slap some basic paint on it, brush my hair, get dressed and GO motherfucker.
Be Blessed!!
Love & Light,
Neecie
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