Fat Lip

Hello and Good Day!

Hmph. Well, not a good day for me anyways. I didn’t sleep well and my lip is all swollen so I’m guessing I was chewing on it when I did sleep. I do that.

I’m falling apart today and the world goes black.

I just don’t know anymore about anything. At least today I don’t. My back is killing me  but I shall persist.

I always do.

I’m lonely today.

I know I could reach out but I don’t have it in me.

Tomorrow I will get the guarantor form filled out by a friend for the remaining balance of the bankruptcy, get it scanned and sent in and we’ll be ready.

It breaks my heart that things came to this. That I’m a loser without a car.

We have no food in the house but I while I could walk to the store, I have no way to get back with all the bags.

I don’t want to call my daughter, she lives close by, but I know she’d rather not and I don’t blame her. It would be hard for me too. I don’t wanna ask anyone person for too much. I mean, this is all my fault.

I might try to put the order through for delivery and see what the extra cost of that would be.

Yup. I’m feeling sorry for myself.

Wishing I was normal again. But I’m not. No excuses though. Push through woman.

I don’t know. I just know this life is hard.

Momma.

She said that to her doctor when Paul and I took her.

She said, “This life is hard.”

Makes me cry.

Momma.

Ok, well no choice but to go on.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie