Deep Sleep

Good Morning,

Not the best sleep but at least what I did get, was a straight shot through, which tends to mean, at least when I was still wearing my Fitbit, that I probably got some good deep sleep in.

Deep sleep is key for me.

My tummy not good though. After I’m done with this, I’m going to start cleaning. 

Then job search.

Then shoot videos for the week.

If I still have time, I’ll do bath bombs.

I’m going out to my sister’s tonight to pup sit and in the way back, I’m going to stop at the grocery store as they have a free blood pressure thing. I just have an irksome feeling that my body is over all the years of neglect. Time to shit or get off the pot, man.

I really don’t know how but tomorrow, I really hope to give the cigs, coffee and skin picking up.

Things need to be different this time. I am a master of denial. Like I know the reality but I somehow ignore it anyways.

It’s part of this mental health piece.

I know this sounds awful but I keep going back to this other girl’s page because she’s like a train wreck that you can’t look away from and I think, “Thank God, for me I mean, because a) that could be me and b) it used to be me.”

I wish her peace, I really do.

I’m grateful that I seem to be able to stabilize myself better now. Now it’s just the whole reality thing; finding a place of peace with that and in that.

Lol, ever since I wrote that pooping is like the mental health purge, you know analogy wise, every time I go now, I crack up and think, I’m purging!!!!!

Alrighty, well today and tomorrow will be busy but steady busy, not nuts busy.

Okie, well have a good day!

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie