Glow

Good Afternoon Lovies,

I apologize for no blog yesterday. I actually meant to blog but time management has been an issue.

Not so today but I’m pushing myself with breaks. I found a new show to binge watch, shame. But it’s about makeup artists!!!! It’s called Glow and it’s like Project Runway, only make up; glam, special effects, you name it. I love it so much it makes me feel high watching it. 

So, today is Day 4 of 10 cigs a day. Day 1 was only 6 cigs, Day 2, I believe was 10, yesterday was 8. So far today, I’ve had 4. Not bad for 2:23PM.

The biggest struggle with that is pushing myself in between smokes, like I don't want to go anywhere because driving without smoking is hard but I did push through that.

By not giving in, and smoking more, I’m really realizing how easily my self talk, in the form of convincing myself it’s ok to give in, takes over. It’s been trying these past 4 days, believe me.

But even though I’m having plenty of couch potato time today, I’ve also run 4 different errands. 

I’m falling asleep. My dream is to find a cure for afternoon crashes.

The cure would be going back in time and being 16 again I suppose.

It’s weird because I’ve been keeping the apartment clean so my usual go to hasn’t been available to me.

Anyways, I’m ok, just tired, trying to prepare myself with what’s coming.

Have a good rest of the day!

Be blessed!!

Love & Light,

Neecie