Good Morning!!
Friday has arrived. I think I’ll be out of here early again today. It’s ok. As we get closer to the end game (next Friday), I feel my anxiety growing. It’s tough, this. But doing nothing allows me to sit in the anxiety and it grows; faith followed by action is really the only cure.
Doing something, anything, productive, helps. I feel myself resisting that and wanting to bury my head in the sand.
I can’t though.
Not if I want to break these patterns.
I’ve broken so many already. This can be done. Getting through this job with my sanity intact, this is fucking huge. The next lesson is to do everything in my power to find another job, to make my products and get them sold…I can do this!!!
Ok, all that said; you guys, I had a horrific dream last night. No serial killer shit or anything like that but still horrible.
Yeah, Homie, don’t play dat.
So…I know what I’m gonna focus on at work today. I know what tonight and tomorrow and Sunday morning will look like.
Micromanaging my life is how it has to be right now so that I can learn how to just make some things habit and have room for the good stuff and for spontaneity.
So I’m grateful for Fridays. Today, I am very grateful for Fridays. See video above.
Turns out I’m on my own at work today. Luckily, I have plenty to do. Like I said, depending on when I finish my projects, I may be leaving early. It’s not that I don’t have enough to do, it’s that if I finish up all my projects at say three or even 245, and I leave at 3:30, it doesn’t make sense to start a whole new project and have to come back and figure out where I was in it, that is a trigger for me, anxiety wise in something I have to work on, but maybe now is not that time.
So I may or may not go home early today, we shall see.
I wish you all a happy Friday.
Be blessed.
Love & Light,
Neecie
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