Cooking Ordeals

Good Morning,

Oh wow, guys. I did it, I got up at 4:30, went for a 20 minute walk, ended up cooking this morning because yesterday was a comedy of error and I got too burned out by the whole ordeal to cook. I'll explain. 

But as for this morning, yeah, walked, meditated, made my breakfast and dinner.  Cooking at 5AM is interesting. I left one of the burners on and put an oven glove on it...oops. Luckily, I smelled the smoke and got it in the sink before any alarms went off.

I did my skincare and haircare. I paid my electric bill - ouch.

I got all the clean dishes in the dishwasher put away and got all the dishes I used this morning rinsed and put in the dishwasher, lol.

I'm uploading my long form videos for the week.

I feel good. 

So yesterday, I was going to make Pumpkin bars and after putting in a grocery order for pick up, I realized that I needed another can of pumpkin.

Had to go into the store for that one. Got home, started mixing everything and there were fucking bugs in the flour and the sugar.

Not good.

At that point, I had been running errands all morning and I was zonked. I took a nap and woke up crabby, but I cleaned the kitchen.

That's why the cooking this morning. Tonight, I'll make the pumpkin bars and the other breakfast item.

Tonight, it's really about the cooking, cleaning up any mess and a few other little things and then shower and bedtime. 

I know all of this will fall into place and become easier if I just stick to it.

I hope you all have a great day!!

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie 

Key Lime Pie

 

Hello!!

Been busy this morning, although in a lazy way, lol. I had a good one yesterday, one for the books. I finally got back into my meditation and that felt good.

I did some other stuff, laundry, that kind of thing but then I met my sister, she took me out to 34i8888888888888888888888888888888888888888855555557gggggggggggggggggg49uoi65879, that was Pumpkin chiming in. So my sister took me out to dinner; steak, loaded potate, salad and hands down the best key lime pie I have ever tasted in my life.

And then we hit the bathroom cause ya know, that's how we roll. I'll spare you the details but we were laughing so hard.

And then we walked around The Galleria for a bit. I am only going to say this; my sister is very generous.

I was thinking on the way home that my sister and I...for so many years I was focused on how we were different. And now...I see all the ways we are the same and I have to tell you, that girl is funny. She's fucking hilarious. I laugh with her the way I do with my bestie and that's no small feat.

So suffice to say it was great. I need these times where there's nothing on the agenda but spending time together with people I love and whatever happens, happens and whatever we decide to do, we do. 

I came home, it was after 7 and I flippin' cleaned the apartment! Everything but the kitchen, which I'll do today as I bake and cook for the week.

Meal planning and prep on Sundays is part of my purge of laziness. I never do it and then I spend money, eat poorly, etc.

Fuck all dat.

Alright, well onwards. I'm sad the weekend will be over but it is what it is.

2 more months and I'll be laid off.

And for that...I am grateful AF.

I hope you all have a fantastic day.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Isn't That Always the Case

 

Hi All,

It's been a good morning, it's going to quickly. I have lots to do. Whatever, isn't that always the case with me?

I'm really excited about things coming up but trying to keep my head in today because life...it's just a lot right now and I think we all feel a certain degree of that in these times.

Me, I'm trying really hard to do "me".

Just keep going forward...you know having your head in the clouds is fine as long as you keep your feet firmly planted on the ground.

I'm just going to try and cram as much as I can into today and not begrudge the fact that once again, I'm sortof in the same cycle I seem to create for myself. The only way out of the cycle is to step of the treadmill.

So that's what I'm doing today. Everything I do will get me closer to getting off that fucker, even if it for now, it's part of the cycle.

I saw the most gorgeous movie with my sister last night. It's called Eleanor the Great. It was so touching and so heartfelt.

And that is something I needed. 

This world is throwing so much ugly out there right now and we have to keep dodging so not to have to dodge for awhile and to be able to sit there and experience something touching and heartfelt was much needed.

So anyways, yeah, I'm off to take care of business until I meet up with my sister again. Then, I'll come home and take care of even more business.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

One Brief Shining Moment

 

Good Morning,

So yesterday, I had to blog from my phone again and I had an entire post ready to go and somehow, I lost it and couldn't bring it back and I just didn't have it in me to rewrite it.

So weirdness...I have slept over 7 hours the last 3 nights. I forced myself to go to sleep by 9 for real every night and here we are. 

Yesterday, when I woke up, I knew before I even looked that I had gotten good deep sleep. I knew because I woke up feeling refreshed, hopeful and positive.

What a difference that makes man.

It's interesting...it's gotten warmer again, not hot yet, that's next week but I've been able to sleep with the fan in the window and it's been cold enough even though the temps aren't dropping that dramatically. I already know we'll have to run the air pretty much 24/7 next week and then supposedly, we'll be entering into real fall weather.

My tummy stuff, a-hem, you know of what I speak...is better. Not great, but better. The explosive fahts have gone from 100 to about 10 and this morning, I have only done number 2 twice.

I have no idea what was going on there but it had to have been some kind of virus.

We have entered fall in terms of the season itself and so from now until Halloween, I want to share a story a day about someone I love who has passed/crossed over.

We'll start with my bio dad. This is a story I don't remember. Mom told me. My dad used to keep a journal and somehow, Mom got a hold of it (grandma mom) and she read it. She told me she knew she shouldn't do it, but she did and on the day of my birth, my dad had written in the journal that, "today was the happiest day of my life."

Whatever came after that...you know...in that moment, I was the cause of the happiest day of his life. For one brief, shining moment.

I'm so grateful to mom for telling me that story.

And I love and forgive my dad...I love and forgive him.

And now I'm crying and I must leave for work and work is a whole nother ballgame folks. I'm getting to the end of the season and gonna start looking. I hate that. But I don't know if I can handle another season like this. I hope to keep in touch with my boss but I'll do better by her being her friend and a source of support than her employee. I'm burning out and flaking out again and it's starting to show in my work output.

So I'm just gonna do my best today. And we will go from there.

Alright, I hope all of you have an amazing Friday.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

My Bitches

Hi.

You guys.

Bitch fest coming.

First, my alarm didn’t have to go off this morning. My need to poop ensured I was up. 50 minutes on the porcelain goddess this morning. 

My sister and I were texting and she’s like, “Where is this all coming from? You don’t eat that much.”

That is my question as well.

So that’s the first bitch.

The second is traffic. Two things happened at the same time to ensure demonic possession of the roads; school is back in session and fucking MN and their goddamn roadwork projects.

They can’t be avoided. There are detours and back ups on every route I can possibly take.

I can’t. I just can’t. I didn’t sign in for this. I know it’s life but just bear with me as this is a vent.

The third is the job. Again, not gonna write anything out. It is getting harder. The drive itself, the high emotion here, and customer fallout is falling on me and I’m not going to go into that. Not here but it’s taking a toll and I do think this is affecting some of the tummy/poop issues. I do have a family member going through the gas issues and we are convinced that part of it. We have a sales guy here and salespeople are a whole different brand of human. This guy is so insecure and ego filled because of that. He tries to tell me how to do my job constantly and it pisses all my bosses off and they’ve told him to stop. I don’t work for him, I work for them.

I just think I’ve been creating a stronger, more durable threshold for what I can deal with but it’s being stretched and worn.

When I find something else, I’m hoping I’ll maintain these relationships but it’s time. I need to schedule my trip to Washington so I can start looking for a job and being able to tell them I have this trip scheduled.

I need that trip. I need to hug my bestie and laugh with her.

My Auntie is wanting to come out too. So again, there are good things coming!!!!

Now is not the time to give up but it IS apparently time to shit over and over again. Maybe I’m leaking out all the toxins.

I don’t fuckin’ know man.

Anyways, I guess I better earn my money…so have a good day y’all.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Positive Outcomes

Good Morning,

I started a new affirmation video this morning. I really like it. Doing this has had a subtle but impactful effect on me.

It’s not a “cure” for any of my stuff but it sure makes the load easier to bear and it’s better to walk around with faith in positive outcomes as opposed to gloom and doom.

I want so badly to get up earlier in the morning than I have been but man…

I did however, get some good stuff done last night, although nowhere near what I had wanted to.

But something is better than nothing. I went for a walk along this nature path that I pass on my way home from work. Not enough woods but it was nice to move my body.

It was a hair wash night and I was so intent on doing that, that I forgot to wash my body.

Oops.

Oh you guys, I have been checking out at work. I can’t do that.

I’m just so tired. This is insane.

Anyways, I’m at work and that’s what matters.

Geez,

Talk about Debbie Downer.

It’ll get better, it always does.

Be blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Dark Clouds

 Good Morning!

What a weekend.

It was good. 

I don’t know that I got anything of worth done but it was good. Saturday night ended up being really fun. My daughter’s bff came over and brought her son. He is just so darling.

Lots of high energy and so funny. 

I was so tired yesterday though. Most of the day was spent in bed. 

When will I ever learn to be prepared for the physical and mental exhaustion that comes with stepping outside my comfort zone. 

It’s good to step outside of that, it really is. I had so much fun. My sister came over and she got to meet the little guy too. It’s special for both of us because we’ve known his mom since she was 8 years old.

But there seems to be a dark cloud hanging over me. A lot of it has to do with physical things; this lack of any kind of meaningful energy, motivation or vision. This nauseasousness in the mornings, the IBS getting out of control again. It’s really something.

I’ll tell ya something else as well. I’m over this job. I really like these people and I’m not going to write out specifics. I gave this one the good go. But aside from anything internal here, it’s the drive, it’s the cost of insurance. $1000.00 per month. Yes, you read that right.

It’s not their fault. They are a very small company and insurance companies are not kind to these kinds of businesses.

They make it near impossible.

So.

Here are the first few videos in my The Purge series:

https://youtube.com/shorts/ciPTGF_0LM8?si=R6hZtbsK5Z7xODXm

https://youtube.com/shorts/x8tCNbQJbNg?si=hdQmZHb4GdqTKVWc

https://youtube.com/shorts/4Vv1T6HAHSo?si=V9OAGyXVSkZcnppx

If you’re not a subscriber, I’d love if you would be!!

It’s free and helps out so much :)

I hope you all have a great Monday.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

A Good Day

 

Hi Loves,

It's a good day. I got enough sleep. I could've slept longer but in spite of the fact that I agreed with myself that I wouldn't stress myself today, I also knew that sleeping more wouldn't change anything as far as like, my attitude...and my attitude was good so I got up.

So far today has been about self-care. 

I meditated and did my Wim Hof breathing. I gave myself a facial and did bougie bath. I did those those things this morning because I will be watching a little guy tonight and I don't want to be tryna be in the tub with a 3 year old on the loose, lol.

I took my daughter to the mall to get her bestie some birthday gifts.

I'm going to do some yoga, go for a walk, get some groceries. I'm going to make smiley face chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast tomorrow.

I already did the netty pot and am going to do a full body lymphatic massage, like I'm just trying to be back on track. 

I'm going to shoot some long form videos and get them processed and uploaded. I'm gonna clean, like, I'm just gonna do that kindof stuff today but at a chill level.

And then, when they get here, mom and son, I'll just be ready to focus on them. It's his mom's birthday Monday and she's my daughter's bestie. They will be back here tonight after they go out.

It'll be good. It'll just be really good.

And I also talked to my bestie this morning. Love that girl so much.

Can't wait to be in Washington with her in just a few months.

So yeah, I do need to address the food thing and what I've been taking in. I have felt nauseous every morning for about a week now, my IBS has been acting up and look, the farting thing? It's never been like this consistently before. It's got to be addressed.

So there you have it.

Onwards my dears!

Have a great Saturday.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

The Land

Good Morning!

Ugh. Had a poop issue this morning. Let’s just say, I will never be able to go back to the gas station by my work again.

Humiliating.

But at least I didn’t poop my pants.

Last night, my daughter slept over at a friend‘s house. I am going to be watching this girl‘s little boy this weekend and I am so excited. Babies of any type just make me happy. He’s not a baby, but he’s a little dude, just turned three in March.

So I’ve talked about my drive to work and how I found some back roads to get here. And it’s really pretty but you know it makes me sad too. There are all these new developments going up. There are these big beautiful houses. Yet they are right on top of each other, one after the other. Hardly any yard, no privacy. And the land before all this went up was pristine and so beautiful.

It’s hard to believe when you see things like this, that the birth rate has been going down over the last 30 years.

Do we really need all these new housing complexes or not complexes but developments?

And who the hell can afford these things?

Well, I would love to have a big beautiful house, it’s more important to me to have a beautiful land and privacy.

I don’t know, it just makes me sad. I hope that before our son dies out someday, the land will reclaim its own.

Anyways, I got some good stuff done last night, it wasn’t laying around, so that’s nice.

Work has been very dead and it’s been a slow kind of torture. I’m sitting in the parking lot of the little strip mall next to my work because I’m early and there is a very crabby lady who works at one of the stores and she stares me down every morning.

No lady, I’m not doing anything bad, I’m not casing these businesses. I’m not doing drugs. What the actual F?

Please, no more crabby ladies.

I started my new series on YouTube, so check that out if you want to.

And I’ll be back tomorrow.

Do you have a happy Friday.

Be blessed.

Love and light,

Neecie

Weaning

Good Morning,

I hope all of you are well.

Me, this cold is still wreaking havoc. I’m at work. I don’t want to be here but I get paid for it soooo…so be it.

So I no longer have insurance and I’m due for a refill on my meds but I have to see the doc and I can’t afford it.

I am beginning the process of weaning myself off of them. 

I’m going to need to stay strong in this one.

Alls they really do is regulate the big emotions and I had been learning how to do that prior to getting on them so it’ll be what it’ll be.

I feel so stuck right now. 

But…I’m trying. It’s not gloom and doom.

I want my mom and dad. 

I’m feeling so morose today. Gotta shape up.

I’m in the office by myself today. I both like and dislike that.

I did finish my affirmation series on YouTube. I’m up over 580 subscribers. I’m so grateful.

Starting a new series today.

This experience with my channel keeps me going in many ways.

It really does.

I feel like it’s a good thing, something I’ve finally been able to follow through on.

Anyways, I hope you all have a fantastic day.

Be Blessed.

Love and Light,

Neecie

Be Gone

Hi All,

Sigh.

I do not want to be here. Today, it’s a combination of things.

This cold keeps shifting gears on me and my body is so tired.

And the dreams continue.

I told myself to remember last night’s dream and now have forgotten it.

I don’t think it was a bad dream, just another weird one.

The emotion at work, especially when I’m sick, is wearing me down too. I spent all afternoon yesterday watching the clock and just praying for it to go quickly.

Like…I can’t.

Every kook out there called my company yesterday and I was on the phone with all of them for at least 20 minutes.

Go away nut jobs.

Just. Be. Gone.

I can’t ignore calls either because we’re all connected and everyone in each of the trailers can see if a call is answered.

I just got nothing today.

I’ll deal with it. I’ll get through it and then thankfully, I’ll be on the other side of the week, the downhill slide but in a good way.

After today, the temps will very slowly start going back down again. 

Alright. Well all is well here, just not enjoying my circumstances right now but all is well.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Lay It Down

Good Morning,

Shall I bitch about it getting hot? I mean, it certainly won’t change the fact.

No more heat!!

That won’t change the fact either.

Today will be the worst of it. Anything over 70 is hard for me but anything between 70 and 79 is bearable.

I didn’t go too much last night.

Just being honest.

But right before I went to bed, my beautiful nephew Brayden was Snapping me. I love that boy so much.

He’s just a kid, he has no idea how much it means to hear from him.

It means the world, my heart.

I would lay down my life for my nieces and nephews. My time here matters but I did what I came here to do. I made my beautiful children. The rest is gravy.

I’m overwhelmed now.

Emotional Neecie is here and Denise has left the building.

I don’t want to be at work today with my sniffly nose and virus filled brain.

I want to see my cats. Pumpkin plunked down across my neck and chest this morning. That cat weighs a LOT. But I let her stay and there she remained.

Well.

Onwards I guess. 

Have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Be The Switch

Good Morning Again,

I’m sorry for my post this morning. I’m just…floundering. And I don’t enjoy floundering. Yet…I flounder by choice. 

So stupid.

Yet, sometimes I feel I am helpless to fight it.

Yesterday was not a bad day. Like I said, I got some things done. I made these amazing puff pastry cheese biscuits but I paid for them when I went to bed last night. I had the farts and they were the explosively loud ones that rip forth from the depths of your bowels and the aftermath, that ain’t good either. 

They kept waking me up right as I’d be falling asleep.

I am on the fence with my life right now and it’s time to jump off on one side or another.

Luckily, this cold didn’t get wicked on me. Maybe an after effect of having had Covid is that when you DO catch a cold, the symptoms are dumbed down. I’ve had a couple colds and none of them have been bad. I made it work through the whole thing.

Maybe I wasn’t thrilled about it, but I did it.

I am saving my PTO now for a trip my sister and I are taking at the end of October. I’m so looking forward to that and fingers crossed that we get good weather. I don’t care if it’s cold, just no rain or snow please.

And so…I just wanted to come back and say that it’s not ALL gloom and doom.

I’m ok.

I just wish there was a switch I could flip that would motivate the fuck outta me.

I guess I’m that switch. I gotta flip myself man.

Alright, well I really do hope you all have an amazing day.

I’m ending mine with dinner out with a friend.

Something to look forward to.

Have a good one :)

Too Tired to Think

 

Hello.

Monday. 

Wah.

Blah.

But I'm doing it. I have to. 

I managed to rally yesterday and get some good things done. Not much, but something.

Anything is progress.

I paid a bunch of bills this morning.

Sucks to be  me. But....feels good at the same time.

I decided I'm driving out to Washington when I go in December. I'm too scared to fly. Can't do it.

You guys, I am literally sitting here with nothing.

My cold is worse. I had horrid pain in my ears last night.

I think I'm just sortof clouded in this cold.

But I will be back tomorrow. 

We'll just keep this train on schedule and do the best we can.

Have a good Monday.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

As Far As the World

 

Good Morning!

So I have been sick the last couple days. But I guess if I'm gonna be sick, this is the way to do it. I have a bit of a sore throat, but hardly. I have a bit of an earache but hardly. I have gunk and I have a cough but barely.

It's like it's all there, but will it cross the threshold or will it abate and return to the abyss from whenst it came.

I just don't know. I was lazy yesterday and really didn't do too much more than read and do some laundry, etc.

I am going to try and push myself further today.

Because ya know...if I don't, things don't get done, I feel bad about myself, I whine. Bla bla bla. 

So there you have it. I have nothing written down but in my head, I know what I'm going for here.

We shall see.

As far as the world, I choose love. Sticking by that one. I want to be on the right side of things as much as possible.

Love is always right.

It's plain and simple, it's always right.

So that's me now. Anyone asks anything about me, tell them, "Oh Denise? She chooses love...motherfuckers."

Alright, I'm out.

Today's affirmation:

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Runny and Sneezing

Good Morning,

I’m kind of over everything today. I came to work in sweats. I don’t care.

I walked into screaming and yelling. I can’t. I want to go home. I got under 3 hours of sleep last night. I’m not coughing but I’m runny at the nose and sneezing and sneezing.

I’m exhausted.

I want my mom. 

Yeah, I’m being a candy ass. We all are sometimes.

And I’m still on the people suck train. Big time.

I want to cry right now but even I could, I think I’d be too tired.

Solution?

Catch up on everything today. Leave early if I can. Go home and crawl into bed. I’ll probably be picking my baby up from work but as long as I sleep for a couple hours, that’s fine.

I am picturing my brother and sister curled up on the living room floor together listening as mom sat on the couch, reading is the hobbit.

I want to go back.

And the dreams? You guys, they keep coming. I don’t even remember any of them but my gut tells me they were either bad or uncomfortable at best.

I don’t know. Maybe I’ll be able to look at things positively after sleeping tonight and maybe I’ll feel better too.

I do hope you all have an amazing day. 

Be Blessed.

Love and Light,

Neecie

Fuck the Fence

Hello!

Can I take a moment to ask how everyone is doing? Yesterday was a bitch. 

Not gonna get into it.

I just have little hope for humanity.

Seriously. Don’t care whose side of the fence you live on, if you balance on the fence, if you say fuck the fence…don’t care. We can do better.

We can do a LOT better.

On an entirely different note, a 15 year old was killed right by our apartment building the other day. It was an accident, no drunk driving or anything like that but it’s so sad. His momma.

And then today is the anniversary of potentially the worst thing I’ve experienced on my time here. 9-11. Geez. All the children who lost parents that day are now grown. I just hope that they’ve had good lives. I still feel for those families and I still carry that shock, outrage, and horror in my heart.

It’s a hard fucking day.

If it’s hard for you too, I just send you my love and light. You are in my thoughts.

Be Blessed.

Neecie

Fuzzy Around the Edges

Good Morning!

Oh man. Got the shites this morning. Had to make a pit stop on the way to work lest I crap m’pants again. Not looking to have THAT experience again anytime soon.

I’ve been trying so hard not to let things at work affect me and to just kind of put a shield around myself so to speak. It’s not the job itself. And I stand by what I’ve said in that I really care about the family I work for. 

But man, the emotions run high in this place. 15 years ago, I would’ve been so about the drama. I would’ve looked forward to coming in every day to see what played out next and how I could stir shit up. Now, I remain silent, I observe, and I try to offer support where I can. 

But it is beginning to take a toll.

I really don’t want to get back into the business of writing other people‘s business out so I won’t go into detail.

It is just interesting seeing, in some ways, myself, and how I used to be, and then to see the other side of it and how it must’ve affected my family into a lesser degree, my friends.

And also, my relationships. You know, romantic ones.

The second week of November is when this job ends for the season. And I will start looking wholeheartedly at that time for something else. If nothing else comes up, it’s fine because I have this job to come back too.

Are any of you dreaming more than usual? I am, and my daughter is too. The minute our eyes closed, it seems that the picture show starts. I had a very disturbing one last night and of course I want to evaluate them and know what they could possibly mean.

I felt like in the dream, I wanted to protect someone and I wasn’t able to, and I was so scared that this person’s injuries would be blamed on me because it happened while this person was in my care. But I had caused no harm.

I don’t know, it is what it is, which is a dream. Just a dream.

I’m not depressed, I’m actually OK but I am a little down and things feel a little fuzzy around the edges if that makes sense. Like I’m trudging.

I was supposed to go out to dinner with a friend today, but I’m gonna cancel. I do not have the money.

We can reschedule for sure.

And on that note, I do have to go in so here we go. Another day, another bunch of dollars.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be blessed.

Love and light,

Neecie

Inertia

 

Good Morning,

I don't have a lot to say. I flaked this weekend. I didn't get shit done. I'm so mad at myself.

You know, I do think the meds are somewhat to blame. I wanted to take them once a week, on Friday, to ensure at least one good night's sleep but they fuck me up for at least two days.

It's over. I won't flush them down the toilet but I am going to just throw them out.

Sleep be damned. And honestly, I was doing ok last week without them and the week before. Not great but OK.

At some point, you have to start thinking and just do.

I have been having dreams too. Vivid ass dreams. 

They aren't nightmares but they aren't charming either. I literally was screaming at my daughter in my sleep Friday night and she heard me and she knew the dream was about her. I felt so bad.

I was overwhelmed in the dream and frustrated. She had put taco meet all over the apartment, huge piles of it and it looked like poop.

What the fuck man?

Anyways, yeah, just not good this morning.

Do. No thinking, no trying. Do.

I'm just over where things are right now. Yes, they are better but I've been at a standstill again and I'm done.

There needs to be movement and inertia can only come by design or by out of my hands shit.

There you have it for today.

Bla.

I'm OK.

I hope your day is a great one.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Resistance

 

Hi Loves,

We are six minutes away from me being able to say to you, "Good Morning." Y'girl been lazy but now it's time to move.

This purging thing I'm doing? I don't know I'm able to hold myself accountable somehow and all this week, I got things done in the evening and so there's no cleaning this morning and it's just been weird for me.

But I am resisting other things and so I'm going to begin on one of those things. I'll be posting all these videos after I'm done with the affirmation shorts.

And speaking of affirmations:

and then there's a new one about Grey up:

So very sweet.

I did take my meds last night for sleep. I got in 8.5 hours so regardless of how they zombify me, at least there's that safety net of knowing there will be good sleep at least once a week.

Yay for me.

I am going to a benefit this afternoon. I will be with my boss and the family I work with. I'm only gonna stick around for about an hour as I found a nature path on my way home from work and I just want to go on a long ass walk.

This incredible weather we've had will end soon. I can handle lower 70s but it'll be upper again soon and also one day in the 80s. 

No, no, no, no.

Hot weather can eat me.

Fall. I want fall.

And so that on that note, I shall bid you adieu and and good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Getting There

Good Morning Chums,

It is Friday, Beautiful Friday. Work has been harder and harder for me to get through although I did kick ass yesterday afternoon like I indicated I would.

Just gotta stay on top of that one no matter what.

This is the first month I have been able to pay the rent completely on my own.

So it would seem that slowly but surely I am getting there.

I stayed busy last night although there was time spent on the couch because my beauty called me, my daughter, she FaceTimed and we talked.

My kids call, they come first. No question. I don't see her nearly as much as I'd like to so it was good to see her pretty face.

My youngest has had a week full of friendship and she looks so happy. She had a friend spend the night last night.

I could hear someone hacking away this morning and I am just hoping I don't get sick. That is one thing I do not require at this time.

I'm finally moving again. I'm finally shakin' things up.

Speaking of which, I better get ready for work. So grateful for a 4 day week. It went pretty fast.

Alright, well, I gots to go.

I will be back tomorrow.

Have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie 

No More Favorites for You

Hello Freakie Deekies,

I’m good today but my mind won’t settle. There is music going through my head, I’m thinking about my cats, I’m thinking about the dog I don’t have yet, I’m thinking about my kids.

It’s not bad thoughts. Just a LOT of thoughts.

I had a dream about a former friend of mine. She was one of my besties in high school. I haven’t seen her in years. Shelley. In the dream, she had a charcoal beaded gown on…maybe more like gun metal and a red flower in her hair. 

Who knows what that’s all about?

Looked it up. Strange.

Not sure what to do with that one so I won’t do anything.

Anyways, knocked it out again last night. Intending to do so tonight as well.

I was not able to drag my ass out of bed at 4. But I’ll get there.

My hair is finally growing back. All the breakage from the blond is so much better. And it’s thickening up a bit. I also have almost no hair coming off onto my brush.

One thing I’ve actually followed through on and getting to see the payoff.

I’m shit at work today but I’ll blow it away this afternoon. My boss and I had our usual therapy session this morning. She’s good people. These folks are feisty like me. I never said my tribe is normal and it is so not normal.

It’s 1:06. Time to make the motherfucking donuts and that reminds me; Dunkin’ Donuts discontinued my sister and my favorite donut.

What the fuck Dunkin? You kinda suck for that, not gonna lie.

My sister is not allowed to have favorites anymore. Whenever she has a favorite meal somewhere, it ends up being discontinued.

It’s not right I tell you. 

Well I’m practicing distraction and procrastination right now so here I go.

Have a good afternoon and evening peeps.

More videos:

https://youtube.com/shorts/Zz2fkW7oHoE?si=BsbPCvucuHtOxN7Y

Kk, I’m out.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

The Picture Show

Hello My Lovelies,

How goes your morning? This purging thing I’m doing? I’m working on laziness, which is broken down into several categories.

Last night, I went for a walk, I did a little a workout, I did a load of laundry, I showered and did my skin and hair routine. Then I made the dinner that I’ll have for the next two nights. The cooking set me back from my goal though and I am beginning to come to terms with the fact that I need to get up even earlier since I am so damn pressed for time in the evenings. If I can get myself up and going, I’m just better in the mornings.

But still, a great night. No nap. Constant action. I’m working on sticking to the plan now. So I can be in bed by 8 and go to bed by 9.

I did end up picking my daughter up too. She’s been gone though, after work the last two nights. She reconnected with a friend and they have been glued at the hip. She told me she’s having fun and she’s missed that. I’m happy for both her and her friend.

I’m back to really hemming and hawing at work. I just wish it went faster.

BORING.

SPIDERS

ANTS

Still having nutso dreams but it’s ok. None of them are bad, just weird or absolutely ridiculous.

The picture show has returned.

But.

I’m feeling good.

Here are the two videos I posted yesterday.

https://youtube.com/shorts/baqxH4eQ0rY?si=X1K9bGjRyyzz0zlo

And:

https://youtube.com/shorts/7-WTAZiQ8fo?si=9XvUR0Q4AaxZ3sco

Thanks for your support.

Have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love and Light,

Neecie

Mini Tiger

 

Hello and Happy Sort'of Monday!

I had a good weekend but still kindof lazy. I'm starting a new series for my YouTube Shorts but they won't get posted until I'm done with the current one. I'm going to start posting these all over the place; SnapChat, YouTube, on my WW page and on these blogs.

It's what I want to do, so I shall do it.

A guru I am not but I love doing this.

It makes me think more about accountability and being the person I claim to be on these videos. 

So. Here is todays Affirmation: I am deserving of love and healthy relationships

My daughter reconnected with a friend and she slept over there last night. So Pumps is extra needy this morning.

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And that's what she has to say about it.

My fierce little Tiger. She's built like a mini tiger.

Anyways, it was a quiet evening and I wish I had more time this morning but alas I do not. They have been fed, I got my meditation in, like, it's all good.

This new series I'm doing is on purging. Purging all my bad habits or should I not label them bad but perhaps my challenging habits.

Yeah, that's better.

You'll see them when they go up; one day for each purge and a daily update.

Whatever works.

Alright, well I need to get my water intake for the day prepared and I need to make my breakfast, get dressed, all that good stuff.

I hope you have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie