When Someone Shows You Who They Are

Good Morning,

Ohhhh. Yeah, tired. But not quite as much as the past week or so, so there's that.

I was in bed and asleep by 8:30 last night.

Restless from about 3 until wakeup time but I do feel rested. It's more of like...a body tired.

I had nothing to do at work yesterday and I fear today will be more of the same. It's hard, those days because you are counting by the minutes, instead of the hours.

I woke up to some wonderful things. Someone commented on one of my shorts and it was exactly the kind of comment that gives me inspiration.

Then, I saw my sister had texted me last night saying, "I love you." And then my bestie messaged me saying, "I love you so much."

So this morning, the message seems to be that I am cared about and loved.

Thank you.

My daughter saw someone that I worked with over 20 years ago at her work the other day. This person, I've seen her maybe a handful of times since then. 

And she commented to my daughter about my posts and then conspiratorially leaned in and said, "she's not using is she?" My daughter said no, clean and sober and doing well.

And then this person said, "Oh, that's great. I was just asking because...well, you know."

My daughter was offended but played it off.

I don't deal with people who don't know me anymore. Because that one statement poo poo's all the growth.

Delete.

I honestly don't care about what anyone thinks of me because I'm not wallowing in shame anymore. And I have an amazing turn off switch now.

I have a very low tolerance for bullshit now. And I don't often just delete people. But she crossed a line with my kid and clearly chooses to focus on what was, as opposed to what is now.

Something like that...with my kid, yeah, don't need that in my life and she doesn't either.

Others...there are things that lead up to that. It's not just one thing. When someone shows you who they are, believe them.

Enough said.

But I'm OK. I have a lot of hope that maybe all this sleeping is me catching up after 5 or so years of little to no sleep, it's been a struggle and now...I'm getting some. I get enough, or close to enough, sleep more often that not in the past few weeks so maybe I'm just adjusting and healing.

My other daughter saved me yesterday. She works at a bank and told me how I can make cash deposits after hours so I called my bank and sure enough...so that's a big thing off my shoulders. No more having to leave work early to get to the bank.

Thank you lovely daughter!!

Ok, well, I better get going. 

The mad dash is on.

I hope you have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie