Pup Snuggles

 Good Morning People of the Blog,

Y’girl is tired AF. 

I had a good night, totally chill. The drive out to my dust’s wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be and her little pup is so sweet. 

I pretty much just hung out with her and silly dallied on my phone all night. I didn’t even turn the TV on. I was in bed by 9:30. I’ve never slept with a dog before.

She was turned away from me at first but I woke up at one point and she was snuggled up with her head resting on my arm. I could’ve melted with love.

My cats are not nighttime snugglers. Pumps comes up for love at about 2:30 every morning and Grey hops up on me once I’m awake and sometimes will jump up on my hip to sleep until I move and Mocha is just kind of once in awhile.

But never right up next to me.

So all that love and comfort was nice.

I took my sleep meds because I knew I wouldn’t sleep without them. So I was dragging this morning and I was about 20 minutes late but I give no fucks at this point.

My boss has been sick and she came in yesterday, sneezing her ass off and I’m like, “really?”

Working in circumstances like this is hard. She’s always bitching about something.

And she’s always talking shit to each of us about the other.

You ain’t perfect either sweetheart.

Far from it. 

Between the constant bitching, the constant martyr shit, the days where she makes me the enemy…it’s too fucking much.

Good Lord.

Gonna update my resume tonight and start the stupid ass search again.

You can only let this stuff slide for so long. It gets to you and while I am soooo much better than I used to be, I will blow at some point and when I blow, it’s ugly. It’s really, really ugly.

Anyways, we had downpours here yesterday and I had to leave early for my CTs and just in going to the car to drive to the appointment, I got soaked.

When I walked into the clinic, the air was on full blast and my teeth were chattering and I couldn’t stop shaking. 

They gave me scrubs and I was tempted to try and leave in them but I didn’t. I had to change into my soooing wet clothes. I stopped at home and I had left the air on for my babies and again…started shaking and chattering. 

I changed into sweats and a hoodie and I didn’t warm up until I went to sleep. I changed into a nightgown but once I got under the covers and snuggled up to Chatty, I warmed right up.

We went for a walk this morning and it was warm and pretty outside.

So yeah, conclusion? I need a dog in my life.

I know, I know…not yet.

Ugh.

I got the results of one of the CTs already and they found nothing…nada.

I guess that’s good but still no pap results and haven’t heard on the lung CT yet.

You’ll know when I know.

Or shortly thereafter.

I will be pissed if I catch this cold she’s got.

Ain’t nobody got time for that.

And finally, some weird guy is now commenting on my shorts. Hi hun, hope you’re doing well?

First of all, don’t EVER call me hun, I HATE that. Second of all, if you actually watched the short, you’d know how I’m doing.

There are some things that drive me nuts and that’s one of them. I’m not doing this to attract a man. Not interested. Never will be.

I’m actually not as crabby as I sound in this blog. I just don’t want to be here anymore.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love and Light,

Neecie