I am blogging before my morning walk. I woke up deeply disturbed and I did manage to meditate and to do my breath work but now I'm just crying.
I had a bad dream and the dream...like if I wrote it down, it wouldn't seem like something that would disturb me, yet it does.
Basically, I was really little and I had climbed on to a rooftop somehow and that's something I would've done. I was a little thrill seeker.
But no one could find me and I could hear people yelling for me but I was too scared to answer, the roof was a steep terra cotta kindof roof and it was an apartment building but like 10 stories high and I was afraid to move.
Somehow, some woman figured out where I was and her husband came up and he put me in the chimney so I got out that way. Then my dad was holding me but I didn't really see him. My eyes were golden in the dream, like in Twilight, the good Vampires.
But I wasn't a vampire.
And all the while, that horrid song "Gloria" was playing, like a maniacal soundtrack in my head.
I know that doesn't sound like anything at all but for some reason, the experience of it was bad. So I've been crying because I just feel so disturbed.
I had to step away. Wow. I am really struggling this morning.
But I did a dream analysis and it's all amazing and good.
I still feel just out of sorts though.
I want to call in but the truth of the matter is that I will have these days from time to time and now is not the time to be calling in.
I also had a fantastic weekend and you know, I struggle after really good days. I crash so there may be some of that going on for whatever reason as well.
I think if I just push through, I'll feel better and better.
I haven't gone on a walk and I'm almost out of time to do so, so I better get moving.
I did manage to shoot one video yesterday.
It's long, almost 22 minutes but I sortof talk about what last week was like for me and how I was able to push through it.
Yeah, I need to go in.
I'm gonna go walk now.
I hope you all have a blessed day.
Love & Light,
Neecie
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