Totally My Fault

Hi Guys,

Oh man. Today I am true tired. I didn't go to bed on time. My fault totally. And my daughter had a coworker, a manager, whose last day was yesterday so they were all going out to say goodbye and since I was up when she got home, I agreed to drive her to the restaurant they were going to.

Yeah, it wasn't far but shit got late. 

I could totally go back to bed right now except that you know, I have a job!

And it's a good job.

It's not a job that I want to go away or go away from.

So.

I shall go to work and plug through and my goal is to be in bed by 9 tonight, no if's, ands or buts. Whether I come home and am productive, or come home and am lazy, 9PM bedtime.

Hey, my blog reached over 20K views.

Thank you.

I don't remember when I started this one. I went back and found the old one and was reading through some of the entries. 

Yikes.

I mean, in one sense, much was the same but in the other sense, I sure was mad a lot. Or unhappy a lot. I definitely have suffered from depression this past few months worse than I ever did before but it's weird; I'm not mad at the world anymore, I don't see myself as a victim of being born to this place.

I'm still overwhelmed and depressed but hey...it's all good. Being overwhelmed comes in degrees and I'm not drowning. I'm not there, I feel like I was closer to that before I got the job.

I'm so grateful to the people who helped me. 

But to keep moving forward, I need to be consistent on sleep for sure, like that's got to be a priority and I can't fuck around with it because it's the one thing that affects my ability to function in any healthy way. Or I should say, it's the biggest thing. 

I can tell right now, that it's going to be one of those days where I really struggle to get stuff done and try not to fall asleep at my desk! 

Lord.

Ok, I have to go get ready. I am just dragging my feet.

I did this to myself, it was not outside influences.

Therefore, I must get myself moving and be baller through this day.

Here we go.

I hope you have a great Wednesday. 

My weeks sure do go by quicker now that I'm working.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie