Dance It Out

Good Morning,

I am running late again but by my own fault. I wanted to watch the last episode of the Handmaid's Tale.

Wow.

I'm broke. I cried through the whole thing.

No spoilers, I promise.

By now, I would hope you've all seen last week's episode. It slayed me. For all the reasons.

And now, I think I can leave TV behind me for awhile. I have no desire to get caught up in another show...there have been so many, not all deep and dark but time to focus on me, reality, my life.

Yesterday, I don't know how but I did manage to just keep going until I couldn't go anymore, which fell around 3:30. By then, I had my steps in, having gone on a walk in the AM and doing 36 minutes of yoga. 

Because I chose to watch the show, I'm going to be behind on my step count. I'm trying to find a walking path near my work that I can use on my lunch.

I stuck to the smoke limit yesterday and this morning, I was craving one so badly, I had one...outside, not in my car.

What I had hoped would happen, is happening. It made me feel sick.

I have to keep this up. I am not bringing any smokes to work and I know I will have one hell of a drive home, as I always do. 

But this smoking shit runs deep with me and although not the last of the things about me that I'm trying to purge, it is probably the most important in terms of health and money.

But we shall see.

I got so much done yesterday that I actually have food to bring to work.

Tonight...I'm gonna have to dig deep; get my steps in, make food for tomorrow, clean up a bit, facial, shower, all that...and then to bed on time. 

Tomorrow AM will be easier and it's only a 4 day week so I've got this.

I'm just trying to stay grateful for everything that's happening right now because the hell of that 5+ months is over. We made it. We were taken care of; by mom and dad in heaven, God - whatever that looks like to you, family and friends.

And although the need for financial assistance is behind me, the show must go on as they say and I still need support, love and encouragement.

I'm just so grateful.

I'm tired and my tummy hurts a bit, but I am grateful.

And I have 30 minutes to get out the door and do the thing so off I go.

I hope you have a good day, I hope your weekend was full of fun and relaxation. I had a good combination of both in spite of getting so much done.

I think, to pep myself up, that I'm going to dance my way through the next 30 minutes so I can get some good steps in before I have to plop my ass down in my office chair.

Here is my latest video.

Be Blessed!!

Love & Light,

Neecie