I did not sleep last night. I have an interview this morning but I guess I feel like why bother?
You guys. I can’t do this anymore.
I had some wine yesterday, in a desperate effort to get some sleep and I ended up taking a drive down memory lane. Not good. I guess that’s misleading. Not memory lane in the sense that I used. I didn’t do that. I literally took a drive down memory lane. I ended up crapping my pants. Apparently wine and IBS don’t mix.
The thoughts that were going through my head and still are.
If it ends up that there isn’t an afterlife, I guess that’s ok, at least there will be peace.
I’m tired of living like this.
Something has to give.
I need help.
I’ve been keeping on a happy face for my daughter and not letting her see the despair I feel because she doesn’t deserve that.
But I am drowning. Drowning in despair and I miss mom and dad so much.
So much.
That’s all I’ve got. I’m going to try and get in about an hour of sleep and I guess I’ll get up and go to this interview.
I’m just so tired.
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