Ok, so you know at least I've been up today and moving around. Today, the weather is awful. It's warmer than usual but rainy and gray and that causes a chill.
It is so hard to be motivated in this weather but shall we just be honest with ourselves here? It's almost always hard for me to be motivated.
Whatever.
I am determined to go to be with a clean apartment. Oh no, not cleaning again. Well...yeah, fucking cleaning. Because once again, this apartment is so small. And if I have even one day of laziness, it's a no go, it's gets messy and the kitchen? I cook one meal and it looks like a nuclear bomb went off.
Whatever.
I had an interview yesterday! It was amazing.
But I won't know for a couple weeks and that's hard.
I'm going to send off a thank you email shortly.
Gotta do that.
Last night, I was awoken at :AM by people howling like wolves off in the distance.
It scared the crap out of me.
The funny thing is, I was at a party when I was a teenager and my sister and I left with two guys and we were walking to the house of one of the guys we were with and this other guy who had been at the party, had left and run off and he too, howled at the moon that night. We could mark his progress based on how loud or far away the howls were.
Yes, I have known some very interesting people in my life.
Most of these kind of meetings tended to be in my young adult life, not quite as many crazies now and I am A-OK with that shit.
These days I still like funny, quirky, interesting but only if it comes with kindness and compassion. There are so many people I've reconnected with over the years that turned out to be...yucko and I realized that I was longing to connect with who they were so long ago. You know, I've changed too. There are people from my teen years I would never hang out with or develop friendships with now. And the really amazing thing for me, is that I've connected with people I knew but didn't hang out with way back when, but they are AMAZING people.
I am blessed.
I've been trying diligently to reach out to people and ask to get together because they don't. And that's fine, we're all busy. I just have grown so sick of rotting away in my apartment during this layoff and all the stress that has gone with it that I need human connection.
It's beautiful.
I was thinking about my past this morning and trying to figure out if there really is anyone from my past that I want to reconnect with and I don't. I'm good.
I have room for new friends and for the ones here now but...the past? Let it fucking stay there.
Alright, I gots to go.
Have a great day all.
Be Blessed.
Love & Light,
Neecie
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