"Up There"

 

Good Morning!

Well, yesterday's post is a great example of when I'm "up there" as I like to call it. Lots of energy, but no knowledge how to use that to my benefit. I'm not bi-polar so I have no idea what true mania feels like but days like yesterday, I assume it's sortof like a mimic mini-mania.

I don't like that feeling and it could be because I have leaned towards the morose most of my life and that it's much more comfortable for me to be a negative Nelly instead of a positive Polly. In other words, I can't handle being happy.

Happy is not my comfort zone. 

But then, you know, I've talked about experiencing this feeling of being content and peaceful and that to me, is a better kind of happiness. It's calmer.

That kind of happy I like but yesterday felt frenetic and kind of cray cray.

I also have ouches. 

I just cannot keep my hands off of myself.

Of all the weird mental health shit a person can have, and I do have, why did I also have to get this one? When I get a job with health insurance, the first thing I am going to do is to see a dermatologist. I would imagine at least one of these wounds will have to be lanced off and packed with antibacterial medicine.

It's that bad.

Ugh.

First paycheck I get, once I'm working again, I'm getting nails. It is literally the only thing that helps.

Anyways, I experienced a bit of a crash yesterday. I ended up napping and thus, did not sleep well last night.

But I also need to not be hard on myself because I did get some things done, things that needed to get done.

Something is better than nothing.

I am very, very close to having all my projects around the apartment done.

Yay.

I can't wait to report on that, that will feel amazing. Denise followed through on not one, but many, things.

Yay, rah, woot woot.

Whatever.

Ok, so I'm excited for today. 2nd Christmas! Back to my sister's to celebrate with my daughter and her husband. Second Christmas in a row that she has been sick on Christmas, but it's something to look forward to.

That, and of course, my sister's cooking. I don't know...she may have me beat. Girl can cook like a MF'er.

Yeah baby.

I'm going to go some things now. I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie