Momma

Hello,

Good morning and all that. The temps are slowly going down. We had a true spring and much the same for summer, albeit much more rain than usual. I’ll take it though. It’s not usual for everything to be as rich and lush green by this time of year. Usually, lawns that are not cared for have turned brown and patchy.

So it’s been two nights with no sleeping meds and two mornings having gotten in good sleep. I do think my body is detoxing from the meds though. I am still feeling the “dragging” sensation in the morning but much less so. 

This week, while not doing much else, I have forced myself to at least do my AM and PM skin and hair care routines and I have taken a shower every day. For awhile, even getting in the shower was a task of epic proportions. 

So this next week, I’ll push it further.

Today marks two years since our beautiful momma left us.

I wrote a post on FB about that day but on here, I just want to celebrate her legacy. She was a very funny person but also very practical and she wouldn’t want huge, emotional post. To that she’d say, “Oh Neecie.”

I miss her. She was always the calm in the midst of my storms.

I shouldn’t have put her there but when I was little, I had no idea I was doing that and when I became an adult, it was a part of my process and it took me almost to the end to get past that, although I did start laying off the emotional neediness before that.

Anyways, she was everything to me. She was everything to my brother and sister too, along with Dad. Mom always put us first, except when we little and at Church, pleading to home after the service. Then she ignored us, lmao!!!

She was the quintessential Pastor’s wife. She was much loved. In fact, I would say that to know mom was to love mom, whether she was your mom, your grandma, your sister, your child, your friend or your pastor’s wife.

Just love. We are all made one of a kind, but Mom, she was the best. Her mold was of the highest quality. 

Sigh.

I love you Mom. I miss you every single day. I cherish your visits when they come.

I wish I could go home and cry but I will cry tonight and say some words of love and gratitude and I will light some incense so that the smoke will carry my words and gratitude to her.

Be Blessed Peeps.

Hug your loved ones today.

Love & Light,

Neecie