Roll With It

Good Morning,

Oh man. I did not want to get up this morning. I was down for the count last night, I did not feel well at all. My boss called in yesterday and I was literally all by myself. 

I didn't use the time to fuck off like I usually do. I got stuff done. I'm experiencing some down time and surprisingly, I don't like that.

I think the meds are working for the depression piece, but I am experiencing more anxiety. I just try to breath through it.

I kindof went over my budget this morning and I'm in panic mode. I may have to do some kind of debt consolidation and I so did not want to do that. I worked so hard to get everything fixed and now it's all just shit again but I know there's a lesson in all of this.

Stay teachable Denise, stay teachable. 

No giving up now.

Anyways, I laid down on the couch last night, with my tummy not good and I feel asleep until just before I had to pick my daughter up. We got home and I went right back to bed.

I feel better this morning. Just anxious.

This too shall pass.

Still haven't got my pap results back. 

So, I really, really, really am going to try and push myself through my tiredness tonight and get some things done.

I won't be home tomorrow night and I don't want to come home to the way things are at this moment.

Change is hard. I seem to roll with it when it's things that are out of my control, but when it comes to changing things within myself, it can be difficult.

But I have to believe it can be done. Well, actually, if I'm honest, I've changed already and it's been good.

But now the hard stuff. Maybe I need to not label it as hard. Maybe I need to label it as easy. 

Anyways, it's time to go get ready for my day. Another day, another dollar. Or two or three. 

"I'd gladly pay you Tuesday for a hamburger today."

Oh wait. It's Tuesday. 

A quote from Pumpkin:

"'p;*/-/"

Have a great day guys.

Yesterday's short:

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie