The Big BM

 

Good Morning,

Ok, first of all, props to all of you who get up and do this everyday. I know I'll get used to it but wow...I was so exhausted when I got home. 

I don't think the weather helped any. And it's more of the same today. I'm glad it's Friday. 

That'll give me time to really wrap my head around this.

My first day went well except for the fact that I accidentally brought my daughter's phone to work with me. I was worried she'd be so upset. We had no way of contacting each other. 

I'm going to have her log on to her facebook on this computer so she can always at least get on there and have contact.

So I was stressed all day about that.

The job itself? I'm not worried. But I had two different people teaching me stuff and I have to remember that not everyone teaches like I do, not everyone is going to know the entire job in one day. In fact, many people wouldn't.

I like the people I work with though. They are very nice.

The real struggle for me is going to be forcing myself to do things in the evening and not just deflate.

And it is a struggle, it has been for years.

My son and I texted in the morning while I was on my way to work. I had sent him a link to a song I like and then he sent me some.

I need to learn to let go when stuff like me taking my daughter's phone happens. I need to learn to accept what is. I need to accept that certain things I can do nothing about in the moment and that it will all be OK.

And it was. I got home and she was making dinner and she wasn't upset at all.

This morning, she has her phone...in her room...with her.

So that's good.

My cash gig gal didn't call at all this week, didn't need any help. I did tell her when I'd be available and it's pretty open. I know that she said Mondays are a shopping day for her, for her supplies. And she likes to have everything done by Friday so Tues-Thurs is when she'd need me and that's great for me...if she needs me.

I offered weekends too but she generally doesn't make her product on the weekend, she's out of Farmer's Markets or making deliveries so I probably won't work much on the weekends for her. I hope she needs me next week though because my first paycheck is going to be small pickin's since it'll only be for two days.

I did get paid back from someone who owed me $$. I was surprised. Not that I didn't think she would, I just figured she'd forgotten and it's been awhile so that was nice. A little more to tide me over for the week.

My body must've reacted weird to the excitement of yesterday because, and this only happens maybe once every two or three years, I didn't go at all.

I mean...you know...number two. The big BM. Didn't happen. I think that had me a little freaked out too because it's so not normal. 

Pumpkin is wanting some love. I'm going to snuggle her up for a minute and get my morning going.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

I can finally say TGIF again!!

Love & Light,

Neecie