Onwards

 

Good Morning,

Second night not sleeping well in a bit. That's with the medication. I'm not sure why. I think much of it has to do with all the thoughts in my head.

Thoughts and worries about my new job; will I be able to do it? Am I going to fail at this one too? 

My dept; will I really be able to pay it off? Is it possible?

How will the apartment ever get cleaned?

Am I going to get enough sleep?

I mean, you get it. My head won't stop.

I'm so fucking stressed out.

And I just pooped for the 5th time this morning. 

Seriously, I need to get myself in order.

My daughter has been sleeping with me the past couple nights and in theory I don't mind but the thing is, it keeps me from doing the things in my room that I like to do in the morning...put away clean clothes, meditate, pick up, wash my sheets, whatever it happens to be.

Right now, because we're on a warming trend, the apartment gets pretty warm but it's still cool at night so I put the fan in the window and it's frickin' freezing in there. Which we both like so I understand.

But I think she'll be OK with me saying, "hey, not once I start working."

I don't know. I have a lot to get done and I've been overwhelmed.

I really need to get shit done.

But I've been my own worst enemy in this.

So.

I need to calm the fuck down.

Since she's in my room now, I'm gonna start out here, in the living room.

And we'll just go from there.

So much to do.

Alright, I'm gonna go and meditate and make a list...yeah, I know, but without a list nothing gets done and with one, at least some things get done.

Onwards!

Have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie