The days go by so quickly while I'm experiencing this whole job search, panic, relief, panic, relief cycle. It's so annoying.
I interviewed for a job via zoom about a week and a half ago and then a week ago, they asked me to come in for a face to face and it went very, very well.
The woman I interviewed with said that they expected to know by this past Monday, Tuesday at the latest so I called her Tuesday and she sounded different. You can just tell you know.
She told me that she'd just been so busy but that she's know by yesterday and I didn't get a call, no email telling me thanks but no thanks.
Nada.
So the only thing to do is to go on.
I felt so positive about this one.
It's shitty when people don't do what they say they are going to do. I mean, I've done it too so there's really no blame but I guess...just frustration.
It's an employers game right now. But I just feel that an employer should be accountable, like an interview is for the potential employee to figure out as well, if this is a good fit. And I felt like I did but now, I think they are shitty and if this how they do business...believe me, if by some miracle they did call today and offer me the position, I would take it but I'd go into it jaded.
Whatever. I'm working on focusing on what comes next and I do have an interview tomorrow for a contract position. It's close, it pays what I need to make my budget and I just have to do my best and hope that this is it. It's not a temp to perm and it's not enough money to be able to save anything but it would be enough to pay my rent, pay my bills and in the meanwhile, keep applying for permanent positions.
But again, I'm up against several people because the contracting agency gives them several to look at.
This is so hard. I know I've made that clear, but it is. I just want a landing spot. It's like flying, only your wings have been removed so your bounced here and there at the whimsy of the wind and you have absolutely no control.
It is what it is, right?
All of life is just that...what it is.
And so I go on.
There will be job search today.
I went and worked for the woman I've written about before, it's not a lot but every little bit helps. I am incredibly grateful for her right now. And she's lovely. I know she'd hire me on the spot if she was ready for a fulltime employee. But she's not. Still, I don't treat this any different than any job. I let her direct me, tell me what to work on and I do my best. I don't dawdle or waste my time.
Because I'm grateful.
I did post a video yesterday. Here it is.
When I went back and watched this, I just cracked up. I have worked for some "interesting" characters. I really should write a book. There are so many I could write but for sure, just about the jobs I've had, it's hilarious. Sad too, when I look back and see the pattern that has been my life...like a rat in a cage on a treadmill. But I did that to myself.
I'm not beating myself up about it, at least I can laugh about it.
I think of mom saying, "Oh Neecie, it wasn't that bad, if it weren't for you, I'd still be naive."
Momma.
So anyways, I worked late, I did get enough sleep. Sleep has not been an issue for about a week or so now and I'm grateful for that too.
And a handsome man flirted with me at the gas station today.
So there's that.
LOL, take it where you can folks, take it where you can.
Have a great day.
Be Blessed.
Love & Light,
Neecie
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