Miss Mary Sunshine

Good Morning!

I’m not feelin’ it but what else is new? I should’ve worn a coat, it’s frickin’ freezing. Hang on, gonna turn up the heat in this shindig.

Ok, hopefully, that will kick in soon. 

This illness, whatever it is, is kicking my ass from bumfuck Egypt to Timbuktu.

Fucker.

I made the massive mistake yesterday of going on my lunch to pick up some things for this cold that I can’t seem to kick. I grabbed some cough syrup and didn’t even pay attention to what I was grabbing. When I got back to the office, I took a bump. Oops. Not only does it have Benadryl in it, which knocks me on my butt, it had alcohol in it. Now this kind of thing is not something I freak out about because I will take things with alcohol in it for colds, etc. I know a lot of people who are sober won’t do that and I understand why but it does not make me want to drink, trust me. I wasn’t buzzed at all, I was just massively out of it. The drive home was kind of scary. I got right into bed and slept for two hours. 

I seem to sleep better when pumpkin is right next to me and I think it’s because of her weight. It’s comforting somehow. So I need to get a heavy body pillow that I can sleep up against for those nights when she sleeps with her mama, my daughter.

This morning, my stomach has just been fire too. It’s like I wake up and it’s, “Let the wild rumpus begin.”

I made it to work without having to stop and that is good.

Anyways, I am really learning about letting go. I don’t even have the energy to fix it on all the things that are not happening this week because I get right into bed when I get home. You know, for the most part. But this is because of sickness and not depression.

I am just trying to take care of myself at this point and get through this. I got some special mouthwash that is hard-core antibacterial and I’ve been flossing really well and brushing really well in the hopes that if I do have a tooth infection, this will help it get better. I don’t have dental insurance and I certainly don’t have the money to get help for it, if that is what this is.

Anyways, I’m at work, I just had a phone conversation with my boss. I am going to attempt to do better than just half adding it today, although I mean, I’ve been gettin’er done so that’s good. I’m just not Miss Mary sunshine is all.

OK, well I hope you all have a good day. I am getting through this thing. I hope if you are sick or sad or going through something, you can get through it too.

Sometimes, getting through it the best we are able to, is enough.

Be blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie