Blew the Day

 

Hello,

Solution only, no bitching, no drama.

The first solution I am finding is one that quite simply has to be 100% nonnegotiable because all the other ones can't happen unless I do this.

When I go into high stress mode like this, I just don't sleep and often times, as occurred the night before last, I have nightmares.

So I was up for at least two hours and finally fell back to sleep and didn't wake up until almost 9 and I just, yes, it still leaves time to handle the priority, which is job search but then we hit the conundrum that is my mind. It won't shut up and it keeps telling me, "you blew the whole day."

While the solution is easy, clearing my brain in order to just push through it, is hard. I don't know if it's impossible or not, but I sit down to do job search and it is just a cluster fuck of everything else I need to do too.

I have literally screamed at my mind and told it, "Just for the love of all that is sacred, shut the fuck up." 

I don't know, keep screaming I guess. Anyways, today I'm not running on a list, today I am doing one thing at a time and now allowing myself to think about anything else.

But. I need to pick a time to get up in the morning and stick to it, regardless of how much I slept. It is what it is.

I hope you all have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie