Crab Ass

Good Morning!

Oh you guys. You guys, you guys.

All I can tell you is that this morning feels like a struggle.

What exactly does struggle look like for me?

I don't feel good about myself. I'm scared. What don't I feel good about? I feel old ass. I feel fat. I feel lazy. I'm scared about this contract job ending. I feel scared I won't find another job.

I'm mad. I have no idea what that's all about but I go there for no reason at all sometimes. I just feel mad. It's not towards anyone or any thing in particular.

The best way out of mad is to laugh. So I'll try and watch funny things today or read funny things or whatever.

I was fine last night, even managed to get some things done but I fell asleep late. Not enough sleep for miss lil' bo peep,

I suppose some mornings are just gonna be like this. I don't think I need to know why because this is not an ongoing thing. I'm just a crab ass sometimes.

I made a list of all the things that I want to be doing each day, each week. I made a list of goals and I'm going to do some breaking down of the goals tonight, along with job search, which I did do last night. I applied for two.

I did talk to my boss and she is willing to put up a review of me on LinkedIn when I'm done there. She's also going to go over my resume.

Maybe I was put in this position because she will truly be the catalyst for me to find my "forever" or at least my "for now" job.

Ugh, I have to go.

I'm trying to get in early so I can get my ass out of there early and be done for two days and maybe I can get my head on straight so I'm charged for next week.

Alright,

Have a good one.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie