It's been a rough couple days so no blog.
I'm here and kickin' so to speak, ready to try and jump in to some kind of normalcy and productiveness. The laziness and inability to motivate myself is still in play here so the days have been tough.
Many, many things hit at once; my son's dog did get an MRI and it's end stage cancer. They have him on something that may help give him a bit more time but regardless, he won't be with us much longer and this is incredibly hard, especially after just losing their cat Maple. It's only been a couple weeks.
Then my daughter went in and I'm not going to go into that. She'd been having some problems. They did find something but it's almost guaranteed that she'll be fine after a one day procedure.
And my roommate, who as you know, has done so much for us, has cancer. He too, has an excellent prognosis.
He's just gonna through it, ya know? It won't be easy. But it'll be worth it because he'll still be here.
So it's a lot. It's a lot all at once. I just shut down for a few days because it's so overwhelming.
My youngest had a behind the wheel for nervous adult drivers today. They recommended a few more sessions before taking her test but I also know I've got to get her driving all the time. I just have to do it even though I'm terrified. There's a car for her at the end of this so I need to encourage this.
My roommate's house is done. Like...done. I do have just a few things over there I need to take home with me but the cleaning? Done. It feels good to have finished all that.
I did right by him.
I don't like not doing that anymore. Having things hanging. I kept my word.
Commitments are hard for me because I want to commit to everything and help everyone. But I did it.
And I also took a nap.
The sleep thing is still a big problem. But...I guess it honestly and truly is what it is. I'm going to try and clean the apartment, it's really not that bad, than take my daughter to do work, then I have a pick up I have to make and a huge amount of things to get from the car to the apartment and put that away.
That may be all I am able to do today.
And I mean, that's good. That's some productivity.
I'll be watching my son's dog again on Monday and Tuesday so I just have a ton to get done before those two days and I have to go into those two days knowing that just because I spend the day over there, I still have plenty of time to get shit done afterwards. Those afternoons after coming home are not freebies.
Bla!
Gonna go clean now.
Be Blessed.
Love & Light,
Neecie
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