Hi guys,
I am trying so hard not to do this here but I don’t believe
I got a blog in yesterday. I’m still trying to “come back” from that plummet I
had.
I feel much better.
But there is so much more going on now.
First, I had to cancel the doctor’s appointment. Because I
don’t have insurance, they sent me an estimation of cost and it was $400.00 for
the appointment. I can’t do that. There are some online mental health services
that cost around $60 for an assessment and then they send you the meds.
I need to look into the cost of the meds first and then we’ll
go from there.
I forgot it was a full moon two days ago and it was a powerful
one; the fall ones always are. I’m not blaming it all on the moon but that does
factor in. I got 6 hrs and 15 minutes last night which is close to my sweet
spot, my sweet spot being six and a half hours to seven hours.
And I feel alright.
I finished (except for my makeup), the packing in the room I
use as my office. So that’s good. I need to clean the litter boxes, they are
disgusting but I’m thinking I’ll only change one. I need four boxes at our new
place because they said you should have as many litter boxes plus one as you do
cats so I do have 5 bags of litter and I’m thinking we will just go with the
one so I can start out fresh with four bags when we move.
I am moving the cats into the new place, end of day, the day we move in. That
way, most of the furniture will have been delivered and I can get their kitty
towers, hammocks and beds all put together and ready for them.
I need new food for them as well as a lifted tray to put
their food and water on. It never ends.
Ok, whatever, enough of that.
Yesterday, my boss announced her resignation. I’m happy for
her. She’s going to a place that we looked at for my mom. It’s really nice. Mom
would’ve been there except that they had a waiting list and she was already
somewhere else when her name came up.
It’s scary for me because this is what happened at my last
place of employment. Big changes came and my immediate boss left as a result.
And then everything went to shit.
But these things happen and this particular field is a field
of high turnover, high burnout. It’s not good.
That said, because you know I’ve been all over about this
job, I mean, I’m OK. I can stay here long enough to see what Willow’s Whimsy is
gonna be.
Or at least where it seems to be headed.
I say this with total intention; when I am able to leave
this place, I will visit a certain group of people here, residents, who have
become precious to me. I can’t not see them or leave them. Some of them, they
don’t get a lot of visits and they get attached and I can’t just walk away.
Like, I wouldn’t do that. I am going to try not to get attached to any others
and just hold this at bay because part of my problem, as mentioned previously,
is this little problem I have with being a little helper bee. No more. I gotta
help myself first. I gotta make myself into a machine that functions as
flawlessly as possible so I can be there for others and not burnout.
It’s been a long day. I have so much to do after I get off
work; bank, shopping for a dining room set because I’m starting to panic that
we won’t have anything by the time we move. They had some cheap ones at Ashley
Furniture. Honestly, I don’t even care if it’s a POS as long as it matches my décor.
Like, whatEVah.
I need to regroup and start journaling. I’m not nearly as
anxious as I was but I’m having a hard
time just getting “right in the head.”
As I get older, I find that it takes longer and longer to
get my poop in a group after having meltdowns. I will say that the meltdowns don’t go down as deep as they used
to either though.
So, uh, now today is tomorrow (today).
Last night, I spent the last of shit-ton of $$ that’s gone
out to get our apartment ready for inhabitation.
I guess that’s a word, inhabitation, because Word didn’t
highlight as not being one.
Anyways, I still need an altar, towels for both bedrooms,
plates, silverware, cups, deco for table tops in the dining room and living
room, bathroom rugs and then I think we’re pretty much good to go.
Eventually, not now though, I’ll want a picture or two to
hang in the living room, some décor for the walls if you will.
I got to work super early today so I can get out and power
pack tonight, as well as call and get cable service set up, I’m going to need a
new phone (mine cracked) but I’m hoping my phone will hold out until my next
paycheck.
I’m going to write out my budget too, so that there are
never any surprises, or at least as few of them as possible.
I mean, we’re here, this is huge part of what I’ve been
working towards.
The real grind can start after next Friday.
And then it’s ondi like Ghandi.
Alright, well, I certainly have plenty to do here today so I’m
going to get on that. I’m so happy. I’m out of here at 3:45 today. There is a
God. Well, you know, in my mind, there are many.
But I digress.
Ight, Imma hit it now.
Y’all have a blessed day. Work hard, play hard.
Love & Light,
Neecie
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