Crunchy and Dry

 

Hi Everyone,

And good evening.

I know I blogged this morning but...

I'm frustrated.

The company I am temping through is having all sorts of problems setting up my account with them. I'm supposed to be able to fill in my timecards on a day by day basis and they just can't seem to get it together. They keep saying they've sent me password resets but I'm not getting them. It's so annoying.

But I can't control it so I'm not being nasty and I am just trying to move on wit my bad self. 

Ugh.

Today, the sneezing really kicked in and high velocity snot and nose running and still ear pain, although it's more of a constant dull ache now as opposed to ice pick through the ear fucking stabbing pain every so often that I was experiencing.

Again, ugh!

You guys! I got this stuff from Peter Thomas Roth, it's that eye lift stuff? You put it on under your eyes and you can also put it along the sides and crease of the eye and it tightens all that shit up, they have a face one too but I have not tried that. Here's the thing...it does work and it holds the effect for roughly 8 hours but...of course but...everyone and everything I know has a big but...if you don't work it in enough, it leaves a pasty film on the areas you use it on. And it's hard to rub in fully, you gotta go fast. Bla Bla Bla...there was a white pasty film all over my shit this morning, unbeknownst to me. I did not notice it, I thought I had it covered because I had put on some tinted SPF this morning...but nooooo. I had to go to the bathroom and that's when I saw it, after I had a one on one with my boss. But our story does not end there, fair reader, oh no. I had heard my cat puking last night but was too tired to get up. 

You know what's coming don't you? Mmmm hmmmm. She puked on my fucking jeans and I didn't notice that either, until after the aforementioned one on one.

When you add that to my pasty complexion, due to being sick and the nasty cough I have...in fact, she said to me today, "that cough though" and I fucking lied my ass off and said, "oh, yeah, I get allergies in the winter...dust you know" because I wasn't gonna be hacking in her office and say, "yeah I've been down with the sickness since last week, didn't expect to get this job." 

Terrible. But I need this, you all know I need this.

Let's just forget about all that. Tonight, other than the dull ache in my right ear, I'm OK. I'm not zombie exhausted.

I took my sweet daughter on some errands and now I'm home and I have a motherfarting list and I'm gonna blow it out.

But I'm also going to just stop when it's time to stop. I need to do a few things now, rather than later because doing them too late will affect my sleep. You know, I've been having some dreams man. 

It's all new this dreaming thing. I mean, it never was new, I always had nutso dreams my whole life, until I didn't and I suppose that started around menopause, as did this no sleep for the wicked shit. Menopause. I don't like menopause. Honestly, I'd rather get my period than deal with the shit I've had to deal with since going through it.

Menopause, schmenopause, I hate menopause.

Menopause can eat me. 

It kindof is, if you think about it...it eats away at you until you are a shell of your former self, all crunchy and dry.

So far, I've been able to do everything my boss has asked of me, so much so that I'm thinking...wow, this job, while I'm happy to take what they're paying me, I'm thinking they could've offered less but they wanted someone good.

You all know what I want to say about that...someone good. How is that me? But I won't say that. I'm grateful. I'm grateful it's going ok.

I had plans for my birthday but I don't think anyone will want to be around me since I'm still sneezing and coughing.

I cancelled the massage I had scheduled.

Meh.

Gonna be a menopause kinda birthday it seems.

From now on, when something sucks, I'm calling it menopause. That way, everything that sucks in my life is because of menopause.

I won't get confused that way.

LOL.

Okie, well, there you have it. Yeah, I need to get moving on my list. Have a good one.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie