The Only Way Through

 

Good Morning,

Whew, it is a good morning but y’girl slept so good and so hard that I felt zombified when I got up and could barely think clearly enough to get moving.

I was late to work again.

What can you do?

Ha, there is plenty I can do.

Being late isn’t something that happens by accident, unless you’re caught in traffic, etc.

Anyways, I hit the ground running as soon as I got in. We had letters that needed to go on every resident’s door so I got that done as soon as I walked in the door. I hadn’t even combed my hair yet, lol.

My sister will get a chuckle out of that. Big, sloppy blop on top of my head.

Yesterday.

Oh child, yesterday was a doozy. The thing is, it wasn’t bad.

I was busy at work but it was a steady busy. And I can’t tell you how much I appreciate that. Not insane, ya know, just steady, so the day went very, very fast.

But something did happen towards the end of the day and I can’t write about it except to say they are cleaning house. It turns out, we are expendable. If that’s the case, I have to keep my shit together here because I want to leave on my terms and I want to leave with good feelings on all sides in place because I want to come back here and volunteer and maintain the relationships I’ve developed.

But that ain’t gonna happen with a stinky attitude, laziness and apathy about the job.

It’s probably not going to help doing this either. But I’m on a roll with the blog. Each month, my stats have gone up higher and of course, the more I blog, the more views I get. But even though I’m writing most every day, my daily numbers have increased slightly and I so appreciate that. It just makes things better in terms of reaching people with information about Willow’s Whimsy.

Thank you, all of you.

So yesterday I was going on 4 hours and 6 minutes of sleep. Today, I am going on 7 hours and 3 minutes.

I don’t know how I did it yesterday. I even kept up a good attitude and I got a lot done. After work, I went home and brought up the coffee table. I left it in the box and went to make a Target pickup, went to my roommate’s and grabbed one the vanity towers and a couple of misc. items.

Then I brought those up. Can you say nightmare? But I did it.

I then forced myself to shower because time was a tickin’ and I wanted to get that coffee table made.

Once it was done, I then forced myself to take my sleeping meds because I knew that if I didn’t, all the activity I did would keep me up.

Sure enough, I didn’t start feeling sleepy until about 10.

I’m starting to get a good feel for what works and what doesn’t work with the whole sleeping thing.

They are all the standard recommendations you see on sites that include tips for insomnia.

No coffee for me after 3PM. The problem I run into is that around 5 or so, I start craving it. But last night, I pushed through the craving and didn’t give in. That craving remained with me until I finally went to bed.

Drink enough water during the day. I have found when I do this, that it doesn’t matter if I wake up to pee, I usually am able to go right back to sleep.

No iPhone for an hour before sleep. I have to be honest here. I have never attempted this. I will tonight. I promise. And I will report my findings here.

Other things include not being too active for about 2 hours prior to sleep. When I’m in slug mode, not a problem. When I’m not, then it’s a problem because I just want to keep going, to get everything done. This does affect my sleep. I have to tell myself, “look girl, go hard when you get home. But at 7PM, it actually is OK to stop, shower, all that. Like, you’ll live, you really will.”

Sheesh.

I wish I could tell you I could do that tonight but here’s the deal. We have a family counsel meeting here at 6. Now, I don’t have to stay tooooo busy. What I could do tonight, is go home, clean and put away (there is very little to put away at this point but I could get that done), shower and head back to the meeting.

That way, I can take my meds as I’m leaving the meeting and stop and get my edibles because I’m out, eat one in the car and by the time I’m home (which will be about 2 minutes after eating the edible) and I’ll be ready to crash. The meeting resolves the issue with being on my phone as well.

More on this later.

So.

I’ll make a list for tomorrow morning. And hopefully, I can have a productive day.

I have no choice but to be productive today because it’s nuts. I usually whip these blogs out in 10 – 15 minutes and this one has been a few hours in the making.

On that note, I better go.

The only way through is through. Progress is made one step at a time.

I hope you have a wonderful day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie