Down with Pierre!

 

Good Morning!

Monday again. And it snowed out.

Ugh.

I still love the snow, I just don't love the cold temps that have come back with a bang.

Yesterday, I'm not sure what the temp was, it was in the 30s though.

I'm just glad it didn't snow as much as they were saying it might. It means my drive should be normal. 

But yeah, it was cloudy yesterday as has been mostly the norm of late. But it was patchy at times so you would get sunlight and it was wonderful.

It was a good day. My daughter ended up calling me after I dropped her sister off at work and we chatted for a bit and then she said she was going to do some grocery shopping and I told her she could come pick me up and I'd just tag along with her.

My sister would be so proud. There were several things I saw at Target that I suddenly thought I needed. But I was able to say Pierre purchase!!! I bought myself two frozen dinners for two meals this week and a $3.00 dollar cat toy set for my cats.

I take my sister with me whenever I shop now or whenever I want to get on Amazon and start ordering stupid stuff.

She's nice about it, but I hear her say, "Denise, Pierre." And then I don't buy whatever it is I want. Because it's usually a want and it's usually temporary.

I have enough things in this very apartment that I thought I needed and it never gets worn, or used.

Down with Pierre!!

I love my sis. It's actually become difficult for me when I don't talk to her or see her because I was talking to, and seeing, her so much this last spring and into the summer until I got the job at the Senior Living place.

Now we are both playing grownup again. 

Wah!

I baked some bars yesterday but did no further cooking. I was wiped out and grateful when my daughter called because it got me out of the apartment. I just didn't have any cooking left in me, especially when I new the cleaning would be off the chain.

She took me to Sephora to get my a belated Christmas gift. She gave me a dollar amount and I was off to the races. I also got my yearly birthday gift from Sephora too. It was a lipstick and lip liner. Thank you Sephora. They usually have like 3 or 4 items you can choose from but this was the only one they had in stock and I could've cared less. Just give me something free damnit.

I did bougie bath last night and I always light candles and have music playing and Todd Rungren came on and I just cried. I sat in that tub and I cried. I missed Lisa and I when we were so young. I missed seeing mom and dad at the table when they would have their morning coffee, or second breakfast, as I came to think of it, lol.

Hobbits. We're hobbits.

Anyways, I cried when I got out of the tub too.

I guess I was just sad. Not sure what that was all about.

I'm becoming.

And sometimes, I think change is hard, even if it's good.

My daughter cried too, when I picked her up from work. She's good at the job she does but it's a stressful job. Customers are often times assholes and her coworkers get stressed out too and it's hard for her.

So last night...was a crying night.

I think you need to let your feelings see the light, you shouldn't repress them or shove them down. I just am not fully sure why the tears but better to let them come and just be what they are. I realized last night too, as I was crying, that I don't have to know why and because I'm sad in the moment and letting that out, it doesn't mean I have to stay that way. Acknowledge it, feel it, experience it, honor it and when you are ready, move beyond. So that's what I did.

I'm fine this morning. 

Wow though. So I no longer check my sleep stats right away in the morning. I get up and start moving around and getting ready for my day and then I check. Because I don't want it determining how my day will go. 

I've been off the edibles for two days now. Saturday night into Sunday morning, I got 8 hours and 21 minutes and last night, I got 7 hours and 24 minutes.

It's so weird.

But I will take it. I think it's because I've gotten so much busier and then I force myself to go completely in stop mode an hour before.

I read that you should eat a little something before you go to bed as it actually keeps you from waking up hungry and so I've been doing that too.

Anyways, I'll take it and now I have 14 minutes to get ready so I better get out of here.

I hope you all have a good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie