You guys! I gott'r done. I got the whole apartment cleaned, I got everything put away. I have one more rather large load to bring back from my roommate's and I think that should be it.
That will be a big load. And of course, it will have to be put away.
It's on the list for today to get all that stuff but whether I will or not, remains to be seen. It's going to be a busy one but as things stand right now, I intend to go rollerskating and then pick up from my roommate's.
I intend not to multitask, like one thing at a time. When I try to multitask, my ADHD goes on high alert and kicks in my anxiety. One thing at a time, a steady stream and then we'll figure this all out.
I also intend to make some products today. I need to assess what I have for the first thing I'm making for the show, which is bubble bars. I don't know if I have enough supplies to make the 4 different scents I intend to make for the show.
And I am making products both for myself and for a basket I'm donating. Those do have to get done today and a basket purchased. I'm not sure how to wrap the basket. I suck at that kind of thing.
Anyways, I digress. Yeah, there's a list, there's always a list right?
Doesn't matter. Some are small tasks, others large.
It's got to get done, all of it so that I can feel on top of, instead of trying to catch up.
Trying to catch up is a normal state for me and it's part of the whole self sabotage pattern.
Do any of you struggle with that?
It's hard.
But I did shower and meditate this morning. So that's a good start. I need to take the garbage down. I'll start with that and we'll just go from there.
When things feel so big, and so overwhelming, I can choose to look at them in parts and see where I can attack first.
I don't want to go to work tomorrow but I have to. I have to.
That much I know.
So anyways, okie dokie, here we go.
Today, I intend to take moments to be present and to breath deeply and to just steadily keep going.
Nice to have the extra hour this morning, nice to see the sky light up earlier.
I hope you all have a fantastic day.
Oh, I did want to say that this blog...this really needs to be focused on healing and moving forward. I am not going to delete everything and start over once again but I will be removing any posts that mention my current job. It's tacky. I know it's part of the deal, and this job has affected my mental health in ways I never saw coming but it's tacky.
And potentially dangerous. I don't think any of my coworkers have found this but if they did, you all know I don't rant anymore but I definitely do vent and I'll continue to do so but I don't have to get so specific.
I just don't.
Not that any of you look back but I just wanted to state that I'm doing that. Be transparent, ya know?
Ok, com'on get down with the garbage, ya muther get up, com'on get down with the garbage...ha, if you know you know.
Ok, bye.
Be Blessed.
Love & Light,
Neecie
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