Resistance

 

Hi Loves,

We are six minutes away from me being able to say to you, "Good Morning." Y'girl been lazy but now it's time to move.

This purging thing I'm doing? I don't know I'm able to hold myself accountable somehow and all this week, I got things done in the evening and so there's no cleaning this morning and it's just been weird for me.

But I am resisting other things and so I'm going to begin on one of those things. I'll be posting all these videos after I'm done with the affirmation shorts.

And speaking of affirmations:

and then there's a new one about Grey up:

So very sweet.

I did take my meds last night for sleep. I got in 8.5 hours so regardless of how they zombify me, at least there's that safety net of knowing there will be good sleep at least once a week.

Yay for me.

I am going to a benefit this afternoon. I will be with my boss and the family I work with. I'm only gonna stick around for about an hour as I found a nature path on my way home from work and I just want to go on a long ass walk.

This incredible weather we've had will end soon. I can handle lower 70s but it'll be upper again soon and also one day in the 80s. 

No, no, no, no.

Hot weather can eat me.

Fall. I want fall.

And so that on that note, I shall bid you adieu and and good day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Getting There

Good Morning Chums,

It is Friday, Beautiful Friday. Work has been harder and harder for me to get through although I did kick ass yesterday afternoon like I indicated I would.

Just gotta stay on top of that one no matter what.

This is the first month I have been able to pay the rent completely on my own.

So it would seem that slowly but surely I am getting there.

I stayed busy last night although there was time spent on the couch because my beauty called me, my daughter, she FaceTimed and we talked.

My kids call, they come first. No question. I don't see her nearly as much as I'd like to so it was good to see her pretty face.

My youngest has had a week full of friendship and she looks so happy. She had a friend spend the night last night.

I could hear someone hacking away this morning and I am just hoping I don't get sick. That is one thing I do not require at this time.

I'm finally moving again. I'm finally shakin' things up.

Speaking of which, I better get ready for work. So grateful for a 4 day week. It went pretty fast.

Alright, well, I gots to go.

I will be back tomorrow.

Have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie 

No More Favorites for You

Hello Freakie Deekies,

I’m good today but my mind won’t settle. There is music going through my head, I’m thinking about my cats, I’m thinking about the dog I don’t have yet, I’m thinking about my kids.

It’s not bad thoughts. Just a LOT of thoughts.

I had a dream about a former friend of mine. She was one of my besties in high school. I haven’t seen her in years. Shelley. In the dream, she had a charcoal beaded gown on…maybe more like gun metal and a red flower in her hair. 

Who knows what that’s all about?

Looked it up. Strange.

Not sure what to do with that one so I won’t do anything.

Anyways, knocked it out again last night. Intending to do so tonight as well.

I was not able to drag my ass out of bed at 4. But I’ll get there.

My hair is finally growing back. All the breakage from the blond is so much better. And it’s thickening up a bit. I also have almost no hair coming off onto my brush.

One thing I’ve actually followed through on and getting to see the payoff.

I’m shit at work today but I’ll blow it away this afternoon. My boss and I had our usual therapy session this morning. She’s good people. These folks are feisty like me. I never said my tribe is normal and it is so not normal.

It’s 1:06. Time to make the motherfucking donuts and that reminds me; Dunkin’ Donuts discontinued my sister and my favorite donut.

What the fuck Dunkin? You kinda suck for that, not gonna lie.

My sister is not allowed to have favorites anymore. Whenever she has a favorite meal somewhere, it ends up being discontinued.

It’s not right I tell you. 

Well I’m practicing distraction and procrastination right now so here I go.

Have a good afternoon and evening peeps.

More videos:

https://youtube.com/shorts/Zz2fkW7oHoE?si=BsbPCvucuHtOxN7Y

Kk, I’m out.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

The Picture Show

Hello My Lovelies,

How goes your morning? This purging thing I’m doing? I’m working on laziness, which is broken down into several categories.

Last night, I went for a walk, I did a little a workout, I did a load of laundry, I showered and did my skin and hair routine. Then I made the dinner that I’ll have for the next two nights. The cooking set me back from my goal though and I am beginning to come to terms with the fact that I need to get up even earlier since I am so damn pressed for time in the evenings. If I can get myself up and going, I’m just better in the mornings.

But still, a great night. No nap. Constant action. I’m working on sticking to the plan now. So I can be in bed by 8 and go to bed by 9.

I did end up picking my daughter up too. She’s been gone though, after work the last two nights. She reconnected with a friend and they have been glued at the hip. She told me she’s having fun and she’s missed that. I’m happy for both her and her friend.

I’m back to really hemming and hawing at work. I just wish it went faster.

BORING.

SPIDERS

ANTS

Still having nutso dreams but it’s ok. None of them are bad, just weird or absolutely ridiculous.

The picture show has returned.

But.

I’m feeling good.

Here are the two videos I posted yesterday.

https://youtube.com/shorts/baqxH4eQ0rY?si=X1K9bGjRyyzz0zlo

And:

https://youtube.com/shorts/7-WTAZiQ8fo?si=9XvUR0Q4AaxZ3sco

Thanks for your support.

Have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love and Light,

Neecie

Mini Tiger

 

Hello and Happy Sort'of Monday!

I had a good weekend but still kindof lazy. I'm starting a new series for my YouTube Shorts but they won't get posted until I'm done with the current one. I'm going to start posting these all over the place; SnapChat, YouTube, on my WW page and on these blogs.

It's what I want to do, so I shall do it.

A guru I am not but I love doing this.

It makes me think more about accountability and being the person I claim to be on these videos. 

So. Here is todays Affirmation: I am deserving of love and healthy relationships

My daughter reconnected with a friend and she slept over there last night. So Pumps is extra needy this morning.

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And that's what she has to say about it.

My fierce little Tiger. She's built like a mini tiger.

Anyways, it was a quiet evening and I wish I had more time this morning but alas I do not. They have been fed, I got my meditation in, like, it's all good.

This new series I'm doing is on purging. Purging all my bad habits or should I not label them bad but perhaps my challenging habits.

Yeah, that's better.

You'll see them when they go up; one day for each purge and a daily update.

Whatever works.

Alright, well I need to get my water intake for the day prepared and I need to make my breakfast, get dressed, all that good stuff.

I hope you have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

Goofiness

Hey Guys,

Good Sunny Sunday Morning.

Whew! Well, I have had a good couple days. I hung out with my sister Friday night and you know, it's the kind of thing where I could write everything out but it wouldn't be as funny to you, the reader, as it was to the two of us, who experienced it. We were just goofy all night and it was hilarious.

I just felt free which I haven't felt in a long while. Getting out and spending time is truly an elixir for the soul.

Laughter too. I laugh with my sister just as much as I laugh with my bestie. 

I've gone to bed way to late the last two nights but it was worth it. I hung with my sissy again yesterday. Just nice and chill and walking around downtown Anoka. We're gonna go back when we have more time and make an afternoon of going into all the shops, probably have brunch or something.

We had that beautiful cool streak for which I am so grateful but yesterday, even though it was only 80 was a bit to warm for me.

It's coming though, I believe on Wednesday, the temps will go down into the 60s for a high again. Be still my heart, my time is coming; fall.

Pumpkin is up here loving on me as I write. Our greeting since she was a little kitten has always been to give each other a gentle head butt.

So. I am setting chill goals from today through October 31st and then we'll go into a full on VisionList again.

Those goals are as follows: Do some kind of fall line, no matter how small, of products to sell. Lose the rest of my weight, and with that comes exercise, eating healthy, drinking plenty of water, etc. And then the mental health stuff; meditation, WimHof breathing, yoga, you name it.

I want to start and finish all of my projects which include:

• Finish the family cookbook
• Go through my storage locker
• Go through my Willow's Whimsy supplies and reorganize everything
• Go through all my closets, get rid of everything I don't need and organize things better

And to continue just making rent and paying my bills.

I am going to need $4500 to offset unemployment while I'm laid off.

I need to start thinking about that realistically.

These are all doable goals.

I just want to do what I've been saying I've wanted to do all along, which of late is that I want to be back in life and not living from my couch.

So today, it's on.

I hope you guys have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

 

Banjos

Good Morning!

Well…it’s 6:58 and I’ve been at work for an hour. This means I get out early. And of course, no work on Monday AND it’s paid. Thank you Goddess!!!!

I’m burnt da fuggout.

But I’m happy because I’ll be seeing my sistahbelle today.

We gonna hang.

So I volunteered to drop off some legal documents to a crazy lady who contracted with us. She’s a total scam artist. We put a lien on her house and that’s what I have to deliver to her today. I got all dressed up professionally. I even have a wee bit of makeup on. This woman is gonna go ballistic. Luckily, I don’t have to stick around, I just have to give it to her.

There is still that BPD part of me that craves drama and this is a healthy way for me to get it.

Hopefully, this crazy broad ain’t packin’, lol.

Obviously I don’t have to stick around long enough for her to read it, just gotta hand it to her and roll.

You guys…I have been dreaming like crazy. So many ghosts coming to haunt me in my dreams. Ghosts of the past, not necessarily those who have actually crossed over. But I dreamt the night before last that I met Duff McKegan of Guns n Roses. He was so nice. I was totally fangirling in the dream and I’m so not like that. In real life, I’d be like…”Dude!!!!”

Crazy shit, let me tell you.

I don’t know, anyways, bla bla bla.

I woke up to two cats loving on me and vying for my attention. 

Spoiled little felines got what they wanted!!

The drive in to work was dark and I can’t help it…all these backroads had me hearing banjos. If you know, you know.

I was very happy to the crew here. 

I’m such a big old scaredy cat now a days.

Alright, well I don’t actually have too much to do at work so imma hit what’s here and then deliver the thing…the lien notice, come back and try and occupy myself until 2.

I hope you have a great day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie