Good Morning!
I’m tired. And last night I fell into my usual do nothing mode.
This is not good.
I know I’m too hard on myself and I know that it’s ok to have those down days but man…
This job is something else. I do ok yesterday until the end. Training is going to be an issue again but I will say this; the manager had an afternoon meeting with us and he thanked me because there were 5 appointments scheduled yesterday and they were all mine. So he shouted me out and that was great.
But I have to make a slew of calls at the end of the day and it was hard to remember all the steps that go with that.
And then she assigned me something new and expected me to run with it and it threw me off.
These girls work hard and I’m on board with that but I get scared to ask for help when I’m driwning and the lead keeps saying, “This is gonna be all you sooooo” and I’m fine with that but you gotta take enough time to help me learn and be successful.
I’ll get there. I have to put my shit aside and just advocate for myself the best I can but…
I’ll get there. I will. I’m determined.
I need to make up a sign that shows bills, you know my debt and write ZERO payment, all paid and I need to look at that and manifest it.
And if I hope to build my YouTube channel an my business into something I could do in place of a “real” job then there can be no sitting on the couch when I get home.
And maybe I have to look at YouTube and Willow's Whimsy as real jobs. Like, they could be. It's happened for other people.
Maybe do as much as I possibly can while working two jobs and if shit manifests, that's amazing, ya know?
And I am grateful.
The alternative to sitting on the couch after work is sitting on the couch all day in worry and stress. Can't do that. Not again.
I got this.
So there you have it.
I'm up, I have to put a bit more into getting myself ready this morning as I have the interview at Menards right after work.
And tonight? After the interview?
Self care only.
That's all I've got.
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Thank you so much!!!
I hope you all have an amazing day.
Be Blessed.
Love & Light,
Neecie
