No Dumb Denise

 

Good Morning!

Hi All,

I hope this entry finds you all well, fully engaged on the journey. Everyday I feel the mundane creep up on me, I fight that feeling. We can't be "up" all the time, at least not on high octane mode. But we can be present and we can make the most of each moment. Do I walk around saying, "Life is great" all the time? No. But in being present and grateful for things to do, progress to be made, I don't know, it just makes me feel like maybe, just maybe, it is all worth it.

So I have a list, y'all know I do. But today it's full of stuff I put off. It's "out of sight, out of mind" stuff but it will make things easier for me in the long run. 

I also included some down time things that I want to do, but seem to put off and we all need moments of downtime. I've got time for reading put aside, time for working on my puzzle. Why is it that when I do procrastinate, it includes the feel good things? That's dumb. Like, I didn't go take skating classes last Monday. Why?

I don't know, the only excuse I have, is that at that point in the day, it seemed too big. Dumb. Dumb choice, not dumb me. I'm working on all that self-talk shit, ya know? So no, never Dumb Denise, just dumb choices sometimes.

So fun stuff today too. Mundane and Feel Good, Mundane & Feel Good.

I'm off to hit that list!

Have a great day. Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie

NOT a Life Ending Problem

Hello and Happy Sunday,

I just got back from dropping off my daughter at work and chatting briefly with my son. The sun is shining folks and around 1:30 or so, I'm going to go park at my gym, go for a 20 minute walk and sit in the massage chair, then meeting another friend.

I went rollerskating this morning. I met this nice gal who is a year younger than me and we skated together. She may or may not come to the lessons tomorrow night but regardless, I committed to being there to her so I have to go. It's a good thing, I need to push myself further but I can't seem to get past the fear of it.

Things have been going well but my brakes are grinding and it's going to cost so much $$ to fix them. I am going to watch some youtube videos and see if it's something I could do on my own. But I'm not doing it until Tuesday because I don't want anyone looming over me and watching, especially the first time I do it.

In the past, I would've literally sank into a well of depression and self-pity over this but it is what it is. You gonna have a car, eventually, you gonna have problems.

Yeah, for sure, it's annoying but it's not a life ending problem. 

I'm getting antsy. Not in a bad way, but this feeling that I want to be out enjoying life fully. I want to be living the dream, not anyone else's dream but my own, ya know?

I saw my friend Erin yesterday. We went to a delicatessen I'd never been to before and I had my very first reuben. It was everything I dreamed it would be. Erin and I had great conversation as we always do. It was just really nice to be face to face for it. She's been super busy at work so it's been hard to lock down some time. 

I got invited to a movie today but I just have to much to do. Sundays are generally my day off to do the fun stuff but since I'm feeling motivated, I just want to go with that and get a ton done or as much as I can while said motivation lasts.

I hope you are all well and that you enjoy your day.

Be Blessed.

Love & Light,

Neecie